Conkrete - Upside Down Lyrics

I'm constantly telling me it's ok
F*ck it my G you are taking this road way
Thoughts were surrounding when you went and drove straight
Two paths in front of you never looked both ways
Went on just with this receiving like no pay
Kept on just with it and feeling this cold pain
End of the tunnel man maybe your soul waits
Friends are just trouble whenever they go say
"You will not make it, what happened to Joe's brain"
Punchlines are whack
White and just dope
Your are not cocaine you're more like a snow mane"
Killing my career now that is a cold case
Filling up with fears now that is a toll, great
I don't have the patience
I'm getting so anxious
I'm shaking and breaking
And feeling so vacant
Like life is escaping
I'm Going Self hating
Myself is degraded
Man Two different paths why did you take this god I f*cking hate him
God I f*cking hate him
God I f*cking hate him
God I f*cking hate him
God I f*cking hate him
Take a step back homie go and just breath
It's part of the process you gotta believe
Feeling the shit is the way that you see
Sometimes it's hard to forgive me
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
Can't find paradise on the ground
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
Can't find paradise on the ground
What am I doing I should go and leave it
Doubt has been chilling with fear as of recent
Am I just crazy or maybe a genus
Heart was in sleeve but I'm wearing a tank and
So now I am sleeveless now I am speechless
The brain and heart is just only an organ
So Where in the f*ck have these feelings been stored in
Emotions are different when I go record it
Sometimes I'm gaining a fortune
And Sometimes I'm living a lie and I'm dealing with torment
Ripping out my hair
Flipping over chairs
No one really cares
I am feeling scared
I am unaware
Nerves begin to tear
Life is just unfair
I am not a pair
I am On my own and I'm losing control
Walking this road and now bruised is my soul
Today I'm depressed and tommorow I'm not
Stuck in this cycle man when will it stop
Tears in my eyes with this fear on my mind
Praying to god but not clear are the signs
Looking for truth in a pile of lies
Don't have the strength but I'm trying to fight
When it is wrong, it is actually right
When it is right all the shit is just wrong
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
Can't find paradise on the ground
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
Can't find paradise on the ground
Finding the power within me
To go and devour a city
I'm flowering QuickLy
Wired a little bit differently
This is just me and it hadn't been given to me
Suck on a dick and go lick some balls
Rather be me then to fit in with y'all
I dial my numbers Not waiting for calls
Never was perfect I have my flaws
First two verses show them I'm soft
Losing my mind
But refusing to die
When I'm doing the crime
Of abusing my life
But I'm using my pride
And Seduced into rides
And I'm choosing to fight
And I'm losing my might
But I'm winning the struggle
I know you don't get it but hate it then I say just f*ck you
This my diary this is my vent
This just inspires me this is my rest
Making my progress I'm stuck in this process
It's eating my conscience it's getting obnoxious
I can not just block it
Avoiding the chronic
It's crazy it' pains me
It's finds me and drives me
I'm thinking so lowly
I'm thinking so highly
I Live in regret
While I living success
Damn
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
Can't find paradise on the ground
I've been upside down
I don't wanna be the right way round
Can't find paradise on the ground