Craw - SHOTS FIRED Lyrics

Bitch I'm back and better on the come up for the crown
And you know that I'm a header but I chill out underground
I been stacking up my cheddar like my mom she raised a hound
I'm not known to take the lesser shit I'm known to get around
I'm the one to run it up until there's nothing in it left
I'm not one to say what's up I'm busy cooking like a chef
I feel like I'm on the hunt I see who's looking I'm up next
I'm not one to go and stunt I set it all up with a text
I been chillin' out I'm tryna fix some issues in my life
And I can break it down go grab a tissue I've been so uptight
And there ain't no amount that I can give to go say that it's right
I just hate the way I f*ckin live I live in fight or flight
I been talking all my shit I see a red dot on my head
I'm the one to hold my wits oh I can let up when i'm dead
This ain't one that's for the kids like you should go make sure they're fed
You can sink in the abyss or you can fight for life instead
I'm only 21 with seven different suicide attempts
And I been on the run no one would get it God knew what I meant
Bitch I been having fun like look I did it I took down the tent
I think of what I've done like wait a minute I do this to vent
I've had people all around me tell me everything I'm not
I've had people try to down me but I give it all I got
And I still feel like I'm drowning but you know that's not the plot
I just love what I'm amounting turn a little to a lot
Bitch I still hallucinate it leaves me full of fear
And sometimes I can't communicate I don't look in the mirror
I been chillin' in a room of hate I keep that shit sincere
Like I hate to go illuminate the times I shed a tear
I chop the flow up into pieces I'll go change it like it's nothing
Like I came up through the creases but I know I'll kick the bucket
I'll go take my chance and seize it I been yelling out like f*ck it
My bro Lance had told me peace is something that I need to budget
I've seen family fall apart because they want someone to blame
You should know you're not alone I try to heal people with pain
People tend to take it low when you have something to your name
Like they hate to see you grow and then they fill you up with shame
Like I'm living proof of what I say I don't f*ck with pretending
And to tell the truth I'm not okay that's why I've been repenting
Think of what I do it's day by day it's hard to comprehend it
I just like to think I found my way I did what i intended
I haven't slept for like a week I think it's time to change my focus
I'm not even at my peak but I'm the type to make you notice
Bitch I know that I'm unique like I still blame my damn psychosis
I'm a wolf out with some sheep but I know that view gets atrocious
Like my father f*ckin left me but I'm still under his skin
He's the type to say "you need me" I cut ties I'm not your kin
That motherf*cker used to beat me tell me where do I begin
He's the type to live by quotes and say he's been there for his kids
I even tried to make it right I guess you're not ready to face it
This is why I've been uptight it's like it's Freddy vs Jason
I just had to cut my sight I think of you and i start pacing
Like I love you more than life but we're just lacking some foundation
Like I hate to hold a grudge but I can't see it getting better
Motherf*cker I won't budge I'm not the type to leave a letter
I've had people go and judge but I play chess you're still on checkers
And I say I love the rush since it helps me write the records