smokeshow (feat. Brian Durst) Video (MV)

I look in the mirror now
I'm staring myself down
I hate the f*cking way I'm unbound

I always feel nothing
Why can't I feel something
I think it's almost time to burn now

I'm beating myself up
I'm not having no luck
The shit just never seems to turn out

I love how you trust me
You wish I would love me
You're the only thing I want to workout

I love you more than I love me I say that so sincere
And I owe you an apology for when I disappear
And you say you love the honesty for you I shed a tear
I said f*ck the terminology I wish that you were here

You should know it eats me up that I'm the reason that you're hurt
Oh I hate to feel corrupt like you should bury me in dirt
And I hate when I erupt I still have lessons left to learn
Like if I keep it a buck if I lose you I won't return

Oh I would give up everything to keep you by my side
And you know that I'd do anything for you I'd even die
Like I'm thinking of the wedding ring I wish I could supply
I'm an angel with a severed wing I fell down from the sky

I'm drowning I'm drowning
Gave myself with every breath

I'm surrounded I'm surrounded
Gave my all now there's nothing left

I push away I try to hide
But you seen through my disguise

I run away the pain inside
But you saw through all the lies smokeshow

I've been MIA I haven't seen no one in weeks
Oh I been out the way that's just the way I deal with grief
And I think I'll decay but that's okay I play for keeps
You can find me DOA what can I say go find your seat

I been sitting out and smoking oh I think that I'll commit
Like I wish that I was joking oh I hate to go admit
I can feel myself start choking every time I take a hit
I've been up and I've been showing every time I'm in a pit

Like I don't hate myself I just hate everything I do
I feel like I tripped and fell like all this shit came out the blue
And I hate to live in hell but it's just part of what I knew
I'll go toss my wish inside the well I'll throw myself in too

I've been lost I'm barely coping oh I'm ripping out my hair
I'm not one to sugar coat it I been saying life ain't fair
Like I'm in the back eroding but I know that you won't care
I've been up and I've been floating like you know I'll take the dare

I have visions of myself where I'm not on this earth
These delusions eat up at my health I think that I'm the worst
I'm alluding that I might need help I hate to think I'm cursed
I'm including that I'll wish you well I think that I might burst

I'm drowning I'm drowning
Gave myself with every breath

I'm surrounded I'm surrounded
Gave my all now there's nothing left

I push away I try to hide
But you seen through my disguise

I run away the pain inside
But you saw through all the lies smokeshow