Damnchristian! - Undecided Lyrics

Every, thing that I'm doing, got me thinking of newer
All the weight that I'm moving has got me making excuses
I'm not, talking on drugs I'm just talking 'bout being human
When you, feel like you blooming but you don't see no improving
I got, millions of ruined cells in my body from boozing and f*ckin wasting the brews 'til I can't
Keep myself cool
And collected, lecture me later, I feel like an elevator, every time that I made to the top
I fell down and wasted
It's not, my own creation, I tell myself when I'm hating myself
But I'm so jaded I know I just have to face it
I got, no f*ckin reason to be just sitting here thinking bout life
The f*ck is even going on inside my cranium
Like, this whole existence to me seems a little alien
Maybe it's the cries of all the people who were failing me
I ain't got a theory as to why they all be blaming me
Maybe cause they angry I climbed out of it prevailingly
I, don't f*ckin know but I don't give a shit neither
I got no motherf*ckin time for any bitch of a teacher
Who gon' tell me I'm gonna grow up and I'm never gon' be shit
Cause I think motherf*ckin differently from bullshit you feeding
Me but hey, it's said and done now
Guess I'm still grieving all the losses of all the evil dudes I thought were my people
I'm writing down every bar so all of y'all hear me speaking
I'm so eager to f*ckin beat somebody down cause y'all keepin'
On f*ckin pissing me off, everything y'all do is excrement
I'm just tryna dodge y'all bitches while I'm chasing excellence
But f*ck it man, I guess it done got lost somewhere in transit
Theres a chance it's under my motherf*ckin mattress
Lately I been feeling like a case of f*ckin baskets, seems like I'm a bullshit magnet, man it's
F*ckin tiring, got me riding on the side of a whole pride of f*ckin lions
Thinking dying might just be a f*ckin option now
Man it's been so long that I've almost f*ckin forgotten how to stay just f*ckin strong enough
So I don't end up falling down
If I ever see you f*ckin bitches I'ma knock you out
I ain't even talking 'bout nobody in specific
I got tons of motherf*ckers in a line all on my shit list
Just a f*ckin misfit with a dream of doing big shit
I ain't f*ckin quittin' til I'm eating like a picnic, never gonna wonder why the f*ck I even exist
All you f*ckin pissed bitches watch me while I'm done with you
I don't give a damn about you now so f*ck is up with you?
Time to go away and find some shit that's motherf*ckin new
I'm so tired of both of all your ugly ass faces
Got me f*ckin angry but anger is such a waste
And I can't motherf*ckin wait for the day that y'all ain't gon' say shit
So I'm f*ckin making that paper on daily basis
'Cause ain't nothing gonna make me go bankrupt ever again
Ain't shit that I never said, I been f*ckin backpedaled
Treaded on by the dead f*ckin men that I once considered as friends
Whatever, said it again, I don't give a damn about anyone tryna get to my ends
You can meet the end of my hand
My knuckles headed for crest of your jaw so better defend
It ain't gon' matter by then because that'll settle the debt
Hope I ain't 'rrested again though it'd be a lesser offense
Like the one that I used to hop to ditch class I never attend
Though I'm learning a f*ckin lot, that's why I'm never gon' stop
Cause I f*ckin end up on top when I try to get to the spot
I'm f*ckin taking my losses and tryna scrape what I got
It's f*ckin breaking my heart to see all the pain that I brought
But f*ck it, so many crossed me so f*ck every f*ckin body
I'll do it all on my lonesome although my thoughts getting cloudy
F*ckin vision is foggy, tired of acting so cocky, you can just go on without me
Don't give a f*ck about you so please don't give one about me