So Ashamed (feat. Ryaquel) Video (MV)

You never learn do you?
How many times you gotta walk down the same path before you realize that's not the way?

Am I alive? (technically)
I can't even cry (It's ok homie I'm here)
I can't even feel the pain it's not the same a lot has changed (somebody save me)
I used to have a pulse (that was way back)
Before I got engulfed (yeah remember those days?)
Engulfed in all this rage and hatred for myself I'm so ashamed (it happens to the best of us bro)

Now can somebody please inform me on why misery loves our company?
It infiltrates your thoughts with intentions of staying in your mind living comfortably
Relaxing while we're stressing we need compassion and affection
What's the point of planning a relationship if the beginning leads to an ending?
I can't figure it out I've taken one too many pictures without
A smile on my face sitting with a bunch of fakes in the mixture of the crowd
All this pleasure hurting my soul feel the texture worded in prose
I got deserted I didn't deserve it no person is perfect we already grown
Why must it be so painful being this faithful to somebody you trust?
Whether it's a friendship or a woman who's the embodiment of lust
Yeah sometimes we need that slow dance sometimes we want some romance
I'm a grown ass man if you fell for me baby you already know inside that you won't land
I guess I lost sight my heart is full of frost bite
If you gas somebody's head up what will come out that exhaust pipe?
Whenever she got mad she would go and run her mouth
All them slashes on your wrist girl you need to cut it out

Am I alive? (technically)
I can't even cry (It's ok homie I'm here)
I can't even feel the pain it's not the same a lot has changed (somebody save me)
I used to have a pulse (that was way back)
Before I got engulfed (yeah remember those days?)
Engulfed in all this rage and hatred for myself I'm so ashamed (it happens to the best of us bro)

Forgive them forgive them
For they know not what they do
So I tell them you won't make it without me
No you won't make it without me
Forgive them forgive them
For they know not what they do
So I tell them you won't make it without me
No you won't make it without me

She can't even glance at a mirror without feeling disgusted
Her reflection is disruptive it whispers "how did you love him?"
Whatever happened, happened it ain't his burden to carry
He wanted a person who was pure she wasn't the Virgin Mary
Girl he's f*cking you he ain't trusting you there's a difference he ain't getting that comfortable
Shorty knows exactly what he means when he texts her saying he gon come for a few
He wanted nothing but you because of you he had something to prove
Now he's stuck in a feud with himself in his mind everyday just for f*cking with you
That's the price you pay when you fall in love with sinners
When you're having sex so passionate you fogging up the mirrors
It's all about the moment if it's long enough to kiss her
If he knew she would get attached would it have been wrong for him to kiss her?
Shorty you ain't try to stop it you wanted it to happen
It's kind of hard to hear you when you're talking with your actions
They speak louder than you ever did when we were still together
But the saddest part about it I did everything to get her

Am I alive? (technically)
I can't even cry (It's ok homie I'm here)
I can't even feel the pain it's not the same a lot has changed (somebody save me)
I used to have a pulse (that was way back)
Before I got engulfed (yeah remember those days?)
Engulfed in all this rage and hatred for myself I'm so ashamed (it happens to the best of us bro)