Dariel Amant - Bipolar Lyrics

I'm bipolar like New Jersey weather
One day I want it, then I don't
Why is it every time you see me
You just wanna lay up and smoke
I don't really got the time
Time for me to let it go
Get the f*ck up off my line, already told you
You should really get to knowing better
This right here this ain't no phase
Might be stuck like this forever
Might be stuck up in a cage
Girl, the way I'm stuck up in my ways shame
I'm tryna change though
Forget my name
I ain't walking with no halo
Still sinning, still losing, still winning
Still lying, still truth spilling
I'm a good villain dog
Aye
I said I'm a good villain dog
Still true to my roots
Still opening my mind
Learning to manage my time
I can't fit it all
Still rocking with the same crew
Aint nobody brand new
It's funny cause I still can't f*ck with y'all
Money, on my, mind
All the, time I cannot change up
What they want from me
Love, money, I done gave up
Know you see a dollar sign when you see you me
Used to think that we was blood times so revealing
Had my back against wall head towards the ceiling
I was losing faith but I am greater than my feelings
Tireda feelin like a burden to the people that's around me
Every time I speak up man I feel like they jus clown me
Think that they above me so they turn around and down me
Next day it's all good but truth is
They bipolar like New Jersey weather
One day they want me then they don't
Why is it when I just wan talk you girl be thinking I want smoke
I just be communicating you be thinkin it's a joke
How I'm supposed to clear my mind
When you don't listen and you act like you don't know no better
I ain't even tryna front
Swear I thought that we was closer
Guess this just ain't what you want
I was hopin we would last
This ain't really I what I want
You ain't who I thought you was
You ain't who I thought you was
I've been thinkin
I've been sippin
Smokin blunts
Said I'd switch to papers
Yeah I said that more than once
Said I'd stick to paper
Insteada chasing love
But here I am again
Giving way too many f*cks
I gave way too much love out
Thinkin I would get it back but that ain't how it works out
I gave way too much game out
Thinkin I would get my credit but that ain't how it works out
I been in my lane I can't turn now
You want me to change and reverse now
I can't help but stick up both my middle fingers
Bitch I'm up and you sleep I woke up before ringer
Now they ringin up my line
Cause I'm so ahead of time
Money could never change me
It just opened my eyes
I just wanna realize all my dreams in real life
And just know when you see me you ain't seeing no disguise