These days seems it's so hard to stay awake
These days feels like my soul wants to break
Theses days, these days
Theses days I feel like this is all that i can take
I was born with this rage. Had to put the mentals on the page
My uncle beat the shit out my aunt
Roles change
Beatin headed my way
Lookin at this shit that happen
I was at a young age
Seeing somthing i couldn't control
Only 9 Years old
Didnt know what was goin on
Afread to close my eyes
Never slept at night
For years i felt that i was the blame for the shit that happen now stuck in this
Manic depression
Developed a habit of bein an attic
That wasnt enough
Coke was my Escape
God dam give me a break
Were can i found a safe place
To embrace a better fate
Before it was to late
These days seems it's so hard to stay awake
These days feels like my soul wants to break
Theses days, these days
Theses days I feel its all i can take
Thin the memorys never go away
15 Years later
Fear still never fade
Im dead inside
No bets some tears, no regrets
Hell came in an never lift
Im thinkin
How long my soul is gonna to last
Lay my head down my mind flashes back
You dont have a clue what you put me throught
So what im about to say you
You already knew
I hope you die alone
The scars on the back thats been here for so long
Fighting. For whats mine
An taking my life back
No more silence in my voice
I have a f*cken choice
No longer weak
I have a truth to speak
Bittom line This shits. To deep
These days seems it's so hard to stay awake
These days feels like my soul wants to break
Theses days, these days
Theses days I feel its all i can take