Feeling in my heart
I don't really wanna die
Stab me in my heart
I don't even feel alive
X pills just to even look up at the sky
One girl whole world
Keeping me alive
Tell me that she love me
But i fell like its a lie
Mother done passed
Couldn't even tell her bye
Highschool drop out
I can not deny
Education failing
I am really not that guy
Antidepressants do not help in the long run
Keep it to myself trust me you don't really want none
They see me in person when they turn and they all run
Bloodshot eyes, see red I can taste blood
In class average low oh well lets go
80 in a 50 speed fast let the pain slow
Adrenaline rush comes fast please don't go
Always stay wasted lean pills that's because
Feeling in my heart
I don't really wanna die
Stab me in my heart
I don't even feel alive
X pills just to even look up at the sky
One girl whole world
Keeping me alive
Tell me that she love me
But i fell like its a lie
Mother done done passed
Couldn't tell her bye
Highschool drop out
I can not deny
Education failing
I am really not that guy
Pull up to the party keep it lit with the Hennessey
Kick me out when i pop a molly maybe 2 or 3
Drinking all this alcohol liver gonna fail me
Trust me you are not the first telling me to stay clean
Liquor, lean, molly, Percocet and some THC
Throwing in some CBD, maybe that could help me
Staying up all night sleeping in for a week straight
I'm just tryna live without pain on a clean slate
I keep myself wasted everyday week days
Even on the weekends forget what they all say
I blame it on myself for what I been through not you
Coming up to me saying stop couldn't help you
Feeling in my heart
I don't really wanna die
Stab me in my heart
I don't even feel alive
X pills just to even look up at the sky
One girl whole world
Keeping me alive
Tell me that she love me
But I fell like its a lie
Mother done passed
Couldn't even tell her bye
Highschool drop out
I can not deny
Education failing
I am really not that guy