Sometimes I just wanna die, but I don't wanna be dead
I just wanna say goodbye and see who's there in the end
Evil thoughts all on my mind, but I'm alone in my head
No, I don't got a friend, or at least one to depend on
I don't wanna feel lonely, don't wanna felt empty
I just wanna feel numb and sleep as long as time lets me
I know I got problems, you know I got plenty
Gon' work for a while now and pray that God helps me
Subtle voice in my brain, it tells myself I should kill me
They think I'm insane, but they never knew the real me
I pray every day, I know that God can come heal me
But I'm stuck in my ways, I don't know when the end will be
It feels like it's been forever while I'm dealing with this pain
Yeah, no matter what I try, it never seems to go away
Driving reckless in the whip like I might go and meet my fate
I just wanna feel at home but I don't know of such a place
Ok, I've seen better days
I cut off my hair, and it ain't been the same
I make such a mess, I'ma waste of the space
Yeah, lately I'm nothing more than just a gaze
I've just been trying to play in the background
But all of my thoughts stay right up in my face
I'll do anything and everything to get me out these chains, yeah
I know it won't make me happy, but at least I can be numb
Paint my nails black, play guitar, and stay awake until I'm dumb
I'm a lazy useless mess, I can't believe what I've become
Lost my friends and lost myself, yeah, I might die by 21
Sometimes I just wanna die, but I don't wanna be dead
I just wanna say goodbye and see who's there in the end
Evil thoughts all on my mind, but I'm alone in my head
No, I don't got a friend, or at least one to depend on
I don't wanna feel lonely, don't wanna felt empty
I just wanna feel numb and sleep as long as time lets me
I know I got problems, you know I got plenty
Gon' work for a while now and pray that God helps me