Death or Despair - Feel Alive Lyrics

Aye
I just wanna feel alive, I been stuck inside my mind for some time now, aye, yuh
What if we really in a simulation?
And the time that we got is all fabricated?
Really I hate it
I guess I should be elated
Depression gon' test my patience
I'm finding ways to escape it, yuh
What you perceive, you will believe
What you believe may deceive you, aye, yuh, real shit
Real pain that I deal wit
Real love, real hate in the same day
Clouds grey, I'm numbing out all the damn pain
Try to kill it with bottles of f*cking champagne
Percocets would help out with my f*cking "back pain"
Shit been different since last year, when I lost James
Hate myself, try to run from my last name
Michael did the same
What a damn shame

I been losing sanity
Ain't talking to my family
I know them niggas mad at me, yuh
Life done took a part of me
Shit don't even startle me
The universe been hard on me, aye
When it's all said and done
I blow my brains with a gun
The madness has just begun, yuh
What'll happen when I crash down?
And my peers are turning their f*cking backs now?
I been floating on the damn clouds
But I'm falling so I can't drown