desmo. - Not Enough Lyrics

How do I say it so makes sense?
You know the feeling when your frame tense
From always dealing with the same shit and the same mess
I face it every day and can't escape it
Deep down there ain't no way that I'm the same kid

That I was way back in the days when
I could care less, now I wake up and I hate this
Wear a smile cause I gotta grin and take it
But I'm so god damn tired of the fakeness

I've been trying
It's not enough, it's not enough
I've been trying
It's not enough, it's not enough, no

Now I got the doc telling me I should get up and go to therapy
But I ain't buying all the shit that he been selling me
To open up and speak honestly
The chemicals inside my brain don't give a f*ck about psychology

This what you get as I try to keep from self destructing
Don't know what more you could want of me
I can't change to what you wanna see
And I can't change the fact that dead's what I wanna be
Dead's what I wanna be, dead's what I wanna be

I've been trying
It's not enough, it's not enough
I've been trying
It's not enough

It's not enough to be a hypocrite and take your own advice
Try and change your number when you're rolling loaded up dice
You know I've been trying
It's not enough, it's not enough, no

So tell me what I know about depression
Tell me what I know about the cost
Tell me what I know about obsession
Tell me what I know about loss

So tell me what I know about depression
Tell me what I know about the cost
Tell me what I know about obsession
Tell me what I know about loss

Thinking way back around the time I was nine
Never thought I had to worry about suicide
By 23, I wasn't close, never even tried
But I should've f*cking killed myself before my brother died

I've been trying
It's not enough, it's not enough
I've been trying
It's not enough

It's not enough to be a hypocrite and take your own advice
Try and change your number when you're rolling loaded up dice
You know I've been trying
It's not enough, it's not enough, no
It's not enough, it's not enough
It's not enough, it's not enough