Devon - Introspection Lyrics

Knowing yourself sounds like a good idea
But it can be hard to see quite why it should matter so much
There is some clues in an old story about a lion with a saw paw
A traditional folk tale, known as, Androcles and the Lion
The earliest version of the story comes from the ancient Roman philosopher, Aulus Gellius
And has been adapted and re-told ever since
One version goes like this

2021 I felt alright
2022 tried not to die
2023 why did I try
2024 without a sight
I've been annoying people since those days
Expecting better of myself in all those ways
My days have felt so long, and I
Don't even know what's wrong, yeah

I've been staring face-to-face with selfish ways
Not only myself, but from others that I'm seeing every day
It's not okay
But I have no clue on how I'm supposed to stop it
Without clickbaiting people's feels to make another profit

I've been stuck up in my brain, yeah
(I've been stuck up in my brain, yeah)
Making others go insane, yeah
(Making others go insane, yeah)
It's not an act, this is just me
And I'm hating it as well I need to fix it A.S.A.P, yeah
(A.S.A.P)
Yuh, uh
I just keep lashing out
On everyone around
It's embarrassing now, yeah
Ah, uh
Introspection I need (I need)
Some comparison please (Oh please)
Yeah this thorn's prickly, yeah

Never even wanted to just step aside
I never even thought that my thoughts would rise
Never even knew I wasn't being that kind
Now I realize it was all in my mind
Never thought my anger was completely from her
Showing off, maybe, I didn't wanna be hurt
In my head I figured I didn't wanna be hers
Now I'm putting down all my feeling in a verse, yeah
And I just thought to myself
I need to work on fixing my health
First to figure out what's actually wrong with me
Gon' begin with introspection, see
Gotta make another song about her
On another level talking 'bout where I hurt
Thought the best place was wherever we were
Guess I figured out what's wrong with me
I was way too obsessive, huh
Yeah my feelings excessive, huh
Thought she was impressive, huh
Definitely taught me lessons, huh
She made my pain extensive, huh
She was so offensive, huh
Didn't realize though, did I?
Then thought of"What if I die?"

I've been stuck up in my brain, yeah
(I've been stuck up in my brain, yeah)
Making others go insane, yeah
(Making others go insane, yeah)
It's not an act, this is just me
And I'm hating it as well I need to fix it A.S.A.P, yeah
(A.S.A.P)
Yuh, uh
I just keep lashing out
On everyone around
It's embarrassing now, yeah
Ah, uh
Introspection I need (I need)
Some comparison please (Oh please)
Yeah this thorn's prickly, yeah

There's a thorn in my paw
People see me different to before
I don't wanna feel this pain anymore
Locking myself behind my door
Ahh
There's a thorn in my paw
People see me different to before
I don't wanna feel pain no more
Locking myself behind my door

The lion is all of us
When we lack insight into our own distress
The thorn is a troubling, maddening element of our inner lives
A fear, a biting worry, a regret, a sense of guilt
A feeling of humiliation
A strained hope or agonized disappointment
That rumbles away powerfully, but just out of range
Of our standard view of ourselves