Pain Video (MV)

My mates see a different face, ain't seeing that the pains great
Waiting for the day that I'mma vacate. Maintain the same state mentally
Focus on what Seb can be. Steady with the recipe. Celibate but I say it so damn sexually
Uh. Elegant my energy. Smoking so much weed looks like I'm leaning off the Hennessy
It sets me free but only for a second then its back to me steady stressing
Overdoses, blades and ropes So far I have lost Seven Brethren
Sobriety's hard - I mine for diamonds in the silence put my Life Behind Bars
I fight these tyrants in this mire I don't hide from my past
I got the eye of the tiger you can find me in charge - I gotta do this
I'm doin this to hide the pain, secretly my minds insane
It feels like a game and im creeping up on the final stage. Yo I'll pay for my mistakes
Wanting to slow life down so I ride the brakes
I've got gout from the downers I always used to down
Sick of moving pounds, my family sees me as a useless clown
Settle down, I'm having heart palpitations
Fear that I can't ask for help because I'm down some favours
All I found was satan; when I read the Bible
It makes sense that its a weapon against Seb's survival. I made a promise of honesty
This hypocrisy bothers me got to stop it have they forgotten we've gotta breath
Waiting patient, Medication that I've been taking, makes me vacant
Lately been thinking I won't make it. Pace the Straight and narrow. Pain from flaming arrows
Not afraid of dangerous shadows or to face the gallows
I Welcome Death, Got regrets from selling meth
Thats why any time I'm under water I ain't held my breath
I wanna pass out again and again n then not wake up
You wonder why we hate love, you wonder why we take drugs
I don't condone it. I never promote my over doses. You'll find smoking
Don't want you to Know that I'm hopeless. Ive never seen it my demons are breathing easy
They seem to be seeking peace and I just cannot see the reason

I dunno if I can take this pain... Mundane every days the same
Oh no. I dunno if I can take this pain... Mundane Every days the same. Oh no