Love most things yet I feel everything is gone
But that's current I'm on certainly a vex of conundrums
Reflect by the window seal a conjured sense of tear in the reels
Got my hands on the keys still in a standstill
A lack of motivation or maybe I'm just pacing around thyself
Worried too much about material wealth star chasing I'm indebted
To now do what I can do for the ones I love
Thick-skinned like bamboo the spirit tough
Although the time will come when it rumbles and erupts
It's a jungle not attentive enough and speaking silly
Things I never once before even dreamt of nevertheless less than zero a bitter frost
I'm trying to conceal tryna do me and be real want to put my town atop the hilt
It's hard to be the voice of an entire state yourself
Seems I'm drifting off in a hell seems too indifferent and alienated welcome to my spaceship
Let's take off it's f*ck 'em all just think thoughts
Let's smoke pop one dream of new leaf killing my past self
Passionately I am Belzebub incarnate and I feel I've tarnished
Ever the more been thinking on a waxing moon appear to be the one in two
Alluded by this hazy view the torrent indefinitely wants to pull me closer
To the gallows hanging over Babylon it's a hope I once carried
The past world was freeing I like it there hysteria may need a cure from this madness I fear
Need to dry up these tears and reach on though I'm out of focus
In a life so hopeless or am I the one that makes it hopeless
Some things will pass and some things may die
Till then it's just you and I so let the soul run let the soul run
Dreamin' need to wake up the folly of mortal men
Invest a paycut to absolutely nothing
Just tumbling my next destination close in
As I forget where I came from what my worth was
Everyday in the spins just tryna make my way up
Things so simple like common sense ultimately are missing
I lost myself in the frivolous tingling sense
Of tons bottled up without confidence confided to nihil again
I'm a tumbleweed in the wind strapped to a dreamcatcher
Of vice and sin I bury myself in my own antics
Though I hope I can get passed this
Space traveling a vagabond with a bag of bonds
Yearn to be a maverick of spacetime so it don't run thin
And nothing comes thru collide in line with this hatred
Benign complacency I wish to drain in it then liquid refract
Sunshine along the haven I once loved over the sandbox
Build to the stars above there ain't no reason to feel no love
Seems the iv horseman wanna dreck this up in a repeated slump
I'm tryin' to endure eyes red stoned like neolithic
Grow feeble with the demons around me juxtaposition
I don't think this is livin' death to old me I know it well
Like the winteral temper this is December
I'm making money but don't have any ever
So severed from connection I'm bound to fall
Transparency the ghost of sloth from a to z
Slip into racing thoughts need to get up
I've fallen I won't wake up the self is dreading on
A feeling of loss the 2020s bleak I must say
Another jay by the window today admittedly ashamed
Just letting my thoughts race