Intro (Nana)
"Ahhh sleeping in again this morning are you? Well, I just called so we could wish you a happy birthday. God you're getting old. 30 years old. All of my grandchildren except Ian are in their thirties now. Love ya bunches. Bye."
Chorus (Bridget K Crofut)
I been Strugglin - with this addiction - & I can't seem to shake it
The storm's been thunderin - the pain's inflicted - so I'm just stayin faded
And all my problems seem - to manifest in me - it seems I'm filled with hatred
But if I wanna be - the man I'm meant to be - I need to make some changes
Verse 1 (Doc Suess)
I was 12 years old when I started sippin -
Weekends with my friends & some malt liquor -
Mixin Mickey's 40s with that old English -
Delayed no inhibitions now we both finished -
Intoxicated infatuated with women yet -
Inebriated in need of a babysitter then -
Start to feel sick there goes my dinner black out pass out wake up but only sicker damn -
Can't remember a thing without the pictures I -
Wish I'd of known then what was beginning I've -
Been killing myself minute to minute while -
Creating a trail leading to prison I -
Was young & naïve so I just missed it while -
My friends & family had to witness Doc -
Become another victim of this vicious wrong -
Horrific disease I'm in addiction's palm -
Wish I could kick it y'all
Chorus (Bridget K Crofut)
I been Strugglin - with this addiction - & I can't seem to shake it
The storm's been thunderin - the pain's inflicted - so I'm just stayin faded
And all my problems seem - to manifest in me - it seems I'm filled with hatred
But if I wanna be - the man I'm meant to be - I need to make some changes
Verse 2 (Doc Suess)
I've got a problem with the substance that you sip from a cup -
Where 1 is too many & 1000's never enough -
I'm a menacing thug with 1 heck of a buzz -
And trouble always seems to find me the second I'm drunk -
You'd figure I'd stop cuz I got arrested a bunch -
But I just made excuses up & kept on pressing my luck -
Had 1000 chances - never acxepted a 1 -
And everything I had was stripped from me in less than a month -
Exhausted my last option - it was dead in a rut -
Facing 10 years - you bet I had to question the judge -
Mentally I wasn't present but the evidence was -
So she said a hefty sentence to the pen was a must -
Like my Mother's death - wasn't depressing enough -
I was rattled then the gavel hit the desk it was done -
They led me out the court room & as I stepped on the bus -
I was off praying that I'd learn my lesson for once -
Cuz
Chorus (Bridget K Crofut)
I been Strugglin - with this addiction - & I can't seem to shake it
The storm's been thunderin - the pain's inflicted - so I'm just stayin faded
And all my problems seem - to manifest in me - it seems I'm filled with hatred
But if I wanna be - the man I'm meant to be - I need to make some changes
Verse 3 (Doc Suess)
Now this could've been prevented -
So my incentive was to let this be a lesson to see where my life was headed -
Where I'm sitting in the present decisions I'm not regretting -
Sobriety's my agenda - finally I accept it -
I'm Wise enough to remember my life is always together -
As long as I'm off the bottle my problems likely gon let up -
Despite any kind of weather I'll make it through my endeavors -
Keep it knit like a sweater I kicked it like David Beckham -
I never - wanna put my family through this pain again -
And I never wanna sit in jail another day again -
And in order for me to reach & achieve these goals -
I had to teach my soul - I don't need the dope -
To keep control of me I had to seek the road -
That was straight and narrow so I could clean my soul -
I walk with God so I know I'll never be alone-
And now I chase my dreams instead of fiend for dope!
But -
Chorus (Revised)
I'm still Strugglin - with this addiction - but I'm remaining patient -
And it's still troublin - it never a gives in - but I won't let it take me -
I still got problems but - they not as bothersome - it's just some everyday shyt -
So I just handle life - 1 day at a time - & keep my music playin
I keep my music playin