Dollie Meredith - Callin' It Love Lyrics

Thought I knew what I wanted
But then when I got it
I knew I got it wrong
Thought we were in it for love
I don't know what the hell that was
But the thought of it's haunting
Cause I fell back
From a u up text
And it's killing me knowing that
You only wanted me
Cause you were lonely
Have me feeling like
I'm better off dead
Didn't know I was in it
Til it was too late
Didn't know shit
Would go down this way
I was callin' it love cause
That's what I thought it was
I went back thinking things had changed
And when shit got bad
Started picking up drinks
So I couldn't think of us
Or think of callin' that shit love
Callin' that shit love
Callin' that shit love
Feels like I did this to myself
Didn't ask no one for no help
No one knows my kind of hell
Maybe it's better nobody can tell
That I'm under water
Drowning from the trauma
You would bring me up
Just to push me back under
And you could have it all
But only when you wanna
You like to do things
Just like my father yeah
You causing trauma
Like he did with my momma
You keep bringing up the past
Always making me the problem and
Now I'm blacked out
Holding on the bottle
Cause the liquor tastes better
When you hitting rock bottom yeah
Didn't know I was in it
Til it was too late
Didn't know shit would go down this way
I was callin' it love cause
That's what I thought it was
I went back thinking things had changed
And when shit got bad
Started picking up drinks
So I couldn't think of us
Or think of callin' that shit love
Callin' that shit love
Callin' that shit love