Doss - Blue Roses Lyrics

How you go from having it all to desperation
How you go from having control to automation
How you go from simple and easy to complications
How you go from real as it gets to animation
I'm starting to think that my homies feel obligations
To post my new songs when they drop cuz of our relations
They don't ever hit me to check on my concentration
To see if i'm staying focused and hear the new shit i'm making
Yea, this shit could really get discouraging
Even if i stop now the legacy is permanent
Glamour and the fame really isn't the determinant
If you seen the notes app, you'd think I was a journalist
All my new relationships are starting with a follow
And they got the puddle but they end up being shallow
You just send emojis baby this is not a convo
I need something deeper like the pizza in Chicago
Look around and people my age are startin' families
And i'm not even thinkin bout' making Sandi a Granny
Shit I think i'm closer to moving out to Miami
Shit i think i'm closer to getting myself a grammy
Sometimes i'm at peace and other times i'm at war
Sometimes I want less and other times I need more
And the grass stays green where you water it
But it's hard not to check the neighbors lawn and shit
Self-centered that's what she saying I am
Can't even help it they treating me like the man
They brought this on me this wasn't even the plan
Even if i was Ditto I wouldn't change who I am
She think my DM's is over flowing with freaks
It's just producer that wanna send me some beats
A couple people that's tryna sell me a dream
And a few promotion pages that think i'm dumb and naive
Yea, they say you are the company that you keep
Even though she keep on coming for company that ain't me
I think I forgot the difference between my wants and my needs
Watching you get undressed it's like Deja vu
Watching a lot of people I know say I do
I just lost somebody I thought I could say that to
Guess i'm back to Rottweiler til' the day I do
How can i burn a bridge when there's so much water under it
How can I have your back when all you doin' is frontin'
The shit you dropping is gross its getting harder to stomach it
Listening to your shit is like putting myself through punishment
I always say what I mean
Had to learn the hard way sometimes it ain't what it seems
Questioning myself when everybody round me believes
Fighting off anxiety became a daily routine, yea
Dear you know who you are, I miss you
You handed me a broken heart and I wanted to fix you
When the faults were yours never held that shit against you
I was down to work through all the pallets of them tissues
Yea, they pushing me to the breaking point
Not even patience or meditation could save the boy
But staying anxious that's not how i'm tryna live
They say it's never too late but it always feels like it is