Downhaul - Leverage Lyrics

Well they resent me where I'm from
Because I don't visit enough
Which gets back to me so I don't stop by when I'm passing through
And it's so cyclical
You know I'm too visceral about
All this backwards leverage I still hold
Over no one but myself

Well it's a complicated dynamic
It's overstated, but I understate it
Two knuckles deep in soil
Gauging the life that's left in each of us
Your flight's delayed again and
You must know something that I don't

When every little thing gets under my skin
How could I expect to be cut loose from all my sins
If there's some twisted balance in the stars
Are we still buried for who we used to be?

Do they resent you where you're from because you don't visit enough
But the unsolved variable in their equation
Is that you just can't fit anymore
And you'd lay it all down in some
Desperate ditch attempt if it meant for just one second's time that you'd feel whole
Or at least more like yourself
Or at least more like myself