Dynem - Even If It Kills U Lyrics

The hardest thing is how fresh it still feels
I shouldn't be this immersed in these emotions
I should've let go of two and a half years ago
I couldn't tell you what won't let me
Walk away from it
It's just how I feel and honestly
It's how I've felt since we met

My love for her went deeper than just
Our relationship
I loved her family too

When I was around them
I forgot about everything
I hated about myself
I felt like being welcomed to a unit
Like that would be enough
To lift all the darkness off my shoulders

I hated being at home
I got to high school and I never wanted
To sit around
I wanted to be around people
And have a good time

Her and I spent ninety percent
Of our week together for seven months
Then we started growing apart
And it all stopped
It was devastating because my world
Became that relationship
My identity was that relationship
Yeah it's been three years
But I've spent more time
Finding who I was before the girl
Than I've spent getting over the feelings

I don't think I'll ever be over them and
I definitely won't ever stop loving her

I left my heart on grovecrest
I miss you all the time
Two years have yet to numb this
Isolating drought of mine
And I still think I can heal you
Because I know the real you
I'll love you to an early grave
Even if it kills you

I watched you from the mailbox walk away
As you had just sobbed on my shoulder
We embraced but understood the
Affection was gone
That day I lost my soulmate
And the person I could lean on
Through the sunny days and raindrops
Took for granted what you did block
And I hurt you cause I brushed off
Your perspective of my choices
When I forced you to be voiceless
All those nights we spoke until dawn
I discounted your correction with
The ugliest expression of I love you
Cause I loved you but unlike I was s'posed to
Up on Sligh Rd I got close to
Posing bended knee with no ring
Just to show you me devoting to the
Only one I truly owed
An explanation
April I was cranky
So I took it out on you
Mistaking you as my opponent
Made it easy givin' up and maybe
Bein' seventeen was tough enough
Without me complicating things
For both of us I'm chokin' up
I hope if you take
Anything away from this
You'll know that they will
Never measure up
You're the one I love

I left my heart on grovecrest
I miss you all the time
Two years have yet to numb this
Isolating drought of mine
And I still think I can heal you
Because I know the real you
I'll love you to an early grave
Even if it kills you

I left my heart on grovecrest
I miss you all the time
Two years have yet to numb this
Isolating drought of mine
And I still think I can heal you
(I think I can heal)
Because I know the real you
(Wounds we share with love)
I'll love you to an early grave
(I'll love you til death do us part)
Even if it kills you