Easy Out - Forgiveness Letter Lyrics

I originally wrote this as a forgiveness letter
And I'd hoped it could make us all a little bit better
But now I see that it doesn't matter
Cause you don't want to be a father
I wrote this a year ago
And I think you saw it as a joke
But I meant it I wasn't just trying to put on a show
I really wanted you to know
That you had my forgiveness and my friendship
But now I see that you don't think I meant it
You've made me want to empty a whole damn clip
Into my brain just a little bit
You taught me what not to do and taught me what wasn't cool
You think we hate you and yeah typically you'd fit the shoe
You could leave me and my mom black and blue
People can change I thought that wasn't true
But thanks to you I know what I never want to be
I used to pray that you would leave I'd ask God please
Take him out of my life so I can die in peace
But now
I'll take a reprieve
Go to hell or die in a hole
All lies and you're so full
Of hate that I pray for your soul
Your past is dirtier than the oldest piece of coll
You create lies and deceit for yourself
Do you know how long it's been since I've felt?
I can still hear the sound of pain from your belt
It's confusing as Hell but I know I'm compelled
You create pain and you make that hurt last
You know it doesn't go away fast
But I forgave you and in case you felt sad
Here again are my words from the past
You're never too far from redemption
You're just not getting our attention
We aren't who you need to confess conviction
We all want you back you can't even imagine
We had our bad times and you could hit sometimes
But your worst moments gave me my best components
Like patience and kindness I couldn't thank you enough for this
So for that I am glad that you were my dad
And I promise you that I'm not mad
Yes, you've done so much bad
But I still forgive you dad
I'm tired of everyone being so sad
Call God and ring the bells
My dad is gone forever he fell
You've made our life a living hell
You were our jail cell
And this can still be a forgiveness letter
If you'd just let yourself get better
The past doesn't at all have to matter
Remembering it just makes us all sadder
And it makes me a whole lot madder
When you say that you don't matter
Cause that is a stretch you'd need a latter
If your family was glass they'd be shattered
Get your act together
And become a real father
Nobody here wants to see you falter
Do it for me, my sisters, and brothers
And she deserves better so do it for my mother
She's waiting for the day that you hold her
Before you hit her but instead treat her sweeter
Trust me none of us want to stay bitter
Yeah twenty years down the drain
Shut up and let me complain because
My father was not a real father
He was just a damn good impostor