Ed Sheeran - Autumn Variations Album Lyrics

One touch, electric shock
Eyes locked, like, did you feel that too?
World stops, just us
Here under dots in the darkness
Of the blue, out of the blue

Is this how it feels to be in love?
This is magical, this is magical
Is this how it feels to be in love?
This is magical, this is magical

Our lips barely one inch
Your skin brushed by my fingertips
Mornings, white mist
So delicate, covers as we begin
As we begin

Is this how it feels to be in love?
This is magical, this is magical
Is this how it feels to be in love?
This is magical, this is magical

(Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa)
(Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa)

Silence is filled as time stands still
Our thoughts in the open room
Lay here until the sun distills
Its light for the perfect view
Now I'm with you

Is this how it feels to be in love?
This is magical, this is magical
Is this how it feels to be in love?
This is magical, this is magical

It is opening day and a brand new start
The stones have been cleared around the fisherman's hut
And the air bites, then leaves almost invisible cuts on the skin
A lighthouse retired, but a new one was hired
About twenty foot taller, painted in black and white
Twenty million steps with a computer inside instead of him

Only one road sign
Telling cars to slow down
And a long drop in the ocean
Beware of the rip tide
Broken glass and train lines
It's a new day, and this is England

Next to the pub with the flag that's working flexible hours
There's a mismatch of carriages, soil in a boat for some flowers
Fairy lights on a building that's supplying us power from the sea
Electricity lines flow like veins to the town
In between there is nothing but grass and pebbles on the ground
Do not enter the wild here if you want to be found for the free

View the flame of sunrise
Cut in half by the sky
And the empty of the desert
Team of birds that swerve by
And then land on the wires
It's a new day, and this is England

When it's time to escape from the heavy of this
There is nothing like washing away
I find this country of mine gets a bad reputation
Of being cold and grey
But on the coast of the south, to the east followed 'round
I find serenity I've never felt
There's a peace and a quiet in this island of ours
That can't be mirrored by anywhere else

Homes protruding from stones with their wood-coloured black
Scattered cars in a line, steam rising out the shack
One door at the front and then just glass at the back for the view

And the blue is so bright
You need shades for your eyes
And a cable to pull over
Take a walk and feel like
Everything will be fine
It's a new day, and this is England

I caught a sickness and they don't know the name of it
I flew to Paris trying to get away, mh
I drown my sadness, embarrassed by the shame of it
But all it seems to do is magnify the pain
I wish I was a strong boy, head in the sand
If I were them, I would be the man
And my lips are searching for what happiness is
I'm dragging my feet trying to breathe again

Yeah, I'm trying to feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today

I tore the page and I put all of my weight on it
So I could stop it trying to blow away, mh
The darkest days, well, I got all I could take from 'em
Starting to think it'll never change
I see my life is planned in front of me
And I don't need to do a thing just because I can
And my friends are talking like, "What's happened to him?"
I'm dragging my feet trying to breathe again and

Yeah, I'm trying to feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today, and
Yeah, I'm trying to feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today

I'm trying to think, at the same time trying to say something
Can't switch off my brain so don't meditate
Every time I crack a smile I can sense another tear coming
That's kinda weird, but what can I say?
I know I'm on the edge and one push of the wind
Will send me flying deep into the unknown
I guess this is the time to let 'em all in
'Cause nothing is worse than when you hit the low, and

Yeah, I'm trying to feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today, and

Yeah, I'm trying to feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today, yeah
Yeah, this is all that I can feel today
Yeah, this is all that I can feel today

I overthink and have trouble sleeping
All purpose gone and don't have a reason
And there's no doctor to stop this bleeding
So I left home and jumped in the deep end
Took a job for dad, I think just to please him
So when I quit I just kept it secret
And I had friends but no longer see them
And it's just me, and now all my demons

Are heavy, weighing on my heart
I guess I'm done already, all but given up
I'm burning days 'til the week ends and start
I just pretend I'm not where I am
Should I cancel my plans?

Saturday night is giving me a reason
To rely on the strobe lights
The lifeline of a promise in a shot glass
And I'll take that
If you're giving out love from a plastic bag
Saturday night is giving me a reason
To rely on the strobe light
The lifeline of a promise in a shot glass
And I'll take that
If you're giving out love from a plastic bag

My friend died, it's been years, still grieving
And I thought time would be somehow healing
When love finds me, I'm too numb to feel it
Why the hell am I still here breathing?
Oh, I would pray, but I don't believe it
Woe is me, but I don't care either
Life is not the way that it seems, but
Maybe this will all be a dream

And I'll stay steady, balance on the rope
I guess that I'm not ready to rely on the hope
I'm burning days 'til the week ends and start
I just pretend I'm not where I am
Should I cancel my plans?

Saturday night is giving me a reason
To rely on the strobe light
The lifeline of a promise in a shot glass
And I'll take that
If you're giving out love from a plastic bag
Saturday night is giving me a reason
To rely on the strobe light
The lifeline of a promise in a shot glass
And I'll take that
If you're giving out love from a plastic bag

I'm a wreck head, oh
Take me to the other side
Don't look in my eyes
Oh, whoa

It's almost morning, I'm still not leaving
It's wearing off, but I still can feel it
Another one and I'll touch the ceiling
This is all I want to be

Saturday night is giving me a reason
To rely on the strobe light
The lifeline of a promise in a shot glass
And I'll take that
If you're giving out love from a plastic bag
Saturday night is giving me a reason
To rely on the strobe light
The lifeline of a promise in a shot glass
And I'll take that
If you're giving out love from a plastic bag

Oh, it took a while to read the signs
But she used to be a friend of mine
Leading forward, but fell behind
Loneliness redefined

Over and all of above, I hope for
Happiness is all you know, but
I can't help but holding on, on

Silence is never golden
Quietly stuck in the moment, I'm not over you
I'll be forever lonely
Silence ain't golden, you know that it's only blue

Blue
It's only blue
Blue

Oh, I missed the mark a hundred times
Tried to take it back and change the night
Yeah, we used to set the dream alive
'Til the day it sunk and slowly died

Over and all of above, I hope for
Happiness is all you know, but
I can't help but holding on, on

Silence is never golden
Quietly stuck in the moment, I'm not over you
And I'll be forever lonely
Silence ain't golden, you know that it's only blue

Blue
It's only blue
Blue
It's only blue

We're a long way from home
Haven't seen you in so long
But it all came back in one moment
And the year started cold
But I didn't notice at all
And when we found there's a room we're both in

We get Chinese food in small white boxes
Live the life we saw in Friends
Your room, it barely fits the mattress
Wake up, leave for work again
The wind, it seems to blow right through us
Down jackets are the trend
The rush, we're rushing deep into love

English girl in an American town
No elevator to the fifth floor, I'll
Ring on the buzzer then you'll be right down
I wish time would freeze
Dungarees over the hoodie, we're out
Feet are three feet off the ground
Lost in love and we don't wanna be found
It's just you and me
My English girl in an American town
In an American town

Days come and go
But it ends, windows closed
And the scent of your perfume's on me
You're useless with your phone
Electric when one-on-one
I thought I would be more nervous, darlin'

We watch comedies and miss the endings
Conversations till the dawn
And your changin' tide, we push against it
Challenge meanings in the songs
And head out without a reservation
Drinkin' out of paper bags
And wasting time is time not wasted

With my English girl in an American town
No elevator to the fifth floor, I'll
Ring on the buzzer then you'll be right down
I wish time would freeze
Dungarees over the hoodie, we're out
Feet are three feet off the ground
Lost in love and we don't wanna be found
It's just you and me
My English girl in an American town

And when our eyes are closed together, I can't explain
How the scent of your perfume takes me to a higher place
We can watch it unfold or we can change how it takes
And we build when it breaks down

We drink Moscow Mules and steal the cups
From, mostly, the Bowery Bar
What a perfect day to fall in love on
What a way to make a start
It appears when you think all is lost, then
You don't remember when it started, never have to pretend

With my English girl in an American town
No elevator to the fifth floor, I'll
Ring on the buzzer then you'll be right down
I wish time would freeze
Dungarees over the hoodie, we're out
Feet are three feet off the ground
Lost in love and we don't wanna be found
It's just you and me

English girl in an American town
No elevator to the fifth floor, I'll
Ring on the buzzer then you'll be right down
I wish time would freeze
Dungarees over the hoodie, we're out
Feet are three feet off the ground
Lost in love and we don't wanna be found
It's just you and me
My English girl in an American town

Is this just getting older?
I can't get away from this rain
I'm starting to think that's it's me
And I wanna just create things
But the longer it takes, I feel drained
Can't remember a day I've been sober
Not in a place to take blame
Any more weight, I might break
Tell me, do you feel the same?
Guess we all go the same way
I'm in a bit of a mess here
Count to ten and hope to disappear
I never did my homework
Could I have been more than this?
Finding a way exist
Within a world with no risk
Forcing a shoe that won't fit
I spend most the day stoned and
Making excuses for it
Saying it helped to write this
But on the real, I'm tight-lipped
Shooting a shot that I'll miss

And it's so far from near
Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
If it's not, then we're stuck, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry
Every time that I realize
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me

Now that the weather is colder
Nothing is masking this pain
The summer was here but won't stay
And we are inside like all day
Regretting the things that we say
And it takes a toll, yeah
The conversation won't end
Being a rock for your friends
Cracks on the surface don't mend
We only break, we don't bend
And you'd think it was so clear
But I can't see nothing but the fear
I'm feeling so bloated
Thinking a salad won't do
Might as well open up two
Locking myself in my room
Hoping that this all ends soon
And no one will notice
What I will put myself through
'Cause they will hate themselves too
Isn't it mad what we do?
Pretending to win but just lose

And it's so far from near
Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
If it's not, then we're stuck, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry
Every time that I realize
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me

Too many things on my mind
To process moments of life
There's some days I lose my drive
Then some can't control the fire
I'm aware that things take time
But I'm not a patient guy
Maybe if I wait I'll find
Resemblance of peace of mind

This is just getting older
Running away from my past
Knowing the calm it won't last
Being a mouse in this grass
Feeling the snakes behind us and
I'm searching for closure
But nothing is healing these scars
When I open up, they just laugh
Saying if they had just half
Then nothing would ever be dark

Is it new me, new year
Or just the same old blue sphere?

This is not the end of our lives
This is just a bump in the ride
And I know that it will be alright
If it's not, then we're stuck, aren't we?
I can't help myself but cry
Every time that I realize
Maybe I'll never find my smile
But who's to blame? Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me
Well, that's on me

I'm a half-read story, I was fine on the shelf
Why did you take me down as if I needed your help?
No prior warning, no one to catch when I fell
Now that you're not around, I'm not doing so well

Do I look like a monster underneath all my skin?
I wanna cut all this open 'til I'm feeling something
Now I'm tracing the cracks, so I can let the light in
I'm in love with the ghost of you

Better luck next year, there's nothing left here
Why am I constantly searching, feeling unsettled?
Living in Hell, pretending it's Heaven
Head spin, maybe I'm destined to be
Always lonely, alone, a loser, pathetic
Maybe tomorrow will be better

But I'm stuck on the page
But I'm stuck on the page
But I'm stuck on the page

I'm a half-read story, better off in the fire
Now I feel like the fool, haunted by desire
For a moment of glory, I would risk all I am
I look at what we had and I don't understand

Do I look like a monster underneath all my skin?
I wanna cut all this open 'til I'm feeling something
Now I'm chasing the cracks 'til I can let the light in
I'm in love with the ghost of you

Better luck next year, there's nothing left here
Why am I constantly searching, feeling unsettled?
Living in Hell, pretending it's Heaven
Head spin, maybe I'm destined to be
Always lonely, alone, a loser, pathetic
Maybe tomorrow will be better

But I'm stuck on the page
But I'm stuck on the page
But I'm stuck on the page
But I'm stuck on the page

Good morning there
What a way to start the day
With everything laid bare
Hair on the pillow like a frame

If I could capture every fleck of light
I'd capture all and anything
I'd wager that nobody's ever felt the way we feel
When I asked you to be all of life
I knew for every second of our ups and downs
They'd turn around like grass upon the wheel
Like grass upon the wheel

Well, I get lost inside my head
In this chaos, you're my calm
And I will find my feet again
'Cause even the worst days of my life will always end

At midnight in your arms
At midnight in your arms

Sorry I missed your call
It was silent for the song
Let me know when you're free to talk
I won't miss it for the world, no, I won't

I could not wish for more in life
Than just a hint of when you smile
I could go blind and I'd still know your scent
Whenever you'd appear
I have moments when I doubt myself
But feeling low should still be felt
It's natural to be consumed with unrelenting fear
With unrelenting fear

I worry 'til there's nothing left
But in this darkness, you're my sun
I will find my feet again
'Cause even the worst days of my life will always end

At midnight in your arms, hey, hey
At midnight in your arms, hey, hey
At midnight in your arms, hey, hey
At midnight in your arms, hey, hey
At midnight in your arms

Where is my mind? I've lost the nerve
This year flew by without a word
I had a plan to cross the world
But haven't left this island
The stores closed down then opened up
I said I'd do a sober month
I failed, but tried, and wrote this drunk
In overwhelming silence

And I'll see my friends when all this ends
But now until then

I'm holdin' out for spring
We can't let winter win
That's why I'm holdin' out for spring
Oh, what a state we're in
I'll keep holdin' out for spring

Homework and canceled holidays
The blame gets passed to save a face
The smell of last night's takeaway
Just tells me I'm a mess
Still watching shows they recommend
That don't get good until the end
I could be unwell, but then again
Maybe I'm just depressed

And I'll fix my head when all this ends
But now until then

I'm holdin' out for spring
We can't let winter win
That's why I'm holdin' out for spring
Oh, what a state we're in
I'll keep holdin' out for

Springtime, blue skies
Frost fades slowly
Crossed my mind to linger

And hold out for spring
We can't let winter win
That's why I'm holdin' out for spring
Oh, what a state we're in

I can't help but be destructive right now
It's been weeks since I saw your outline
In my room is a silence so loud
This is what losing hope might sound like

Put me down so I'm in my place
Say it's over for breathing space
All I was was a route to change
Is this just growing up?

I might seem too distracted right now
It's been so long I've been the punchline
I stand naked while these clothes dry out
Leave me drowning to edit the runtime

Put me down so I'm in my place
Say it's over for breathing space
All I was was a route to change
Is this just growing up?

All this love could not seal my fate
Low is all that I've been of late
Caught in webs I wove with my mistakes
But this is growing up

I can't help it but I love you so
I can't take this letting go
I still feel that we could work it out or something
All I am is only flesh and bone
Why's your heart so freezing cold?
Don't you leave your weight on me, on me (hey)

I can't help it but I love you so
I can't take this letting go
I still feel that we could work it out or something
All I am is only flesh and bone
Why's your heart so freezing cold?
Don't you leave your weight on me, on me (no, I can't help it, no)

I can't help it, but I love you so (no, I can't help it, no)
I can't take this lettin' go (I will never let you go)
I still feel that we could work it out or somethin' (I will never let you go)
(No, I can't help it, no)
All I am is only flesh and bone (no, I can't help it, no)
Why's your heart so freezin' cold? (I will never let you go)
Don't you leave your weight on me, on me (I will never let you go)

Oh, I've been up all night
Thinking 'bout dying
I've just been wasting time
When will I be alright?

God is not on my side
But God knows I'm trying
I need to redefine
When will I be alright?

Listen to my heart beating
Why is there this empty feeling?
Losing hope and all reason
When will I be alright?

I have lived half of life
Constantly fighting
Cheeks bruised and knuckles white
When will I be alright?

Hold my breath to stop breathing
Love, I used to know the meaning
I'd wake up if I was dreaming
But when will I be alright?

I saw, now I am blind
To all the seasons
I see a fading light
When will I be alright?

Listen to my heart beating
Why is there this empty feeling?
Losing hope and all reason
When will I be alright?

I tried my best to stop her leaving
I wonder about the arms she's in
This is it, the end is nearing
When will I be alright?

Got a call from my mother who wishes she was here
A couple cards in the post that I'm reading
I want the warmth of the summer, the cold too cold to bear
The only plus is the sweater, I need it
I broke apart from my lover a couple months ago
If they were here, then I guess I wouldn't be alone
This is the life in the city, and that's the way it goes
But it's a fine excuse just to leave it

I hit 'em up and I asked, "Are you comin' over?"
And all I got was a shrug and then, "I don't know"

And everyone I know is hidden away
Trying to make their bodies clean again
And they don't want to celebrate
Nobody cares this is the day I was born
Always the month when parties come to an end
The same excuses from every friend
Another year and now we're here again
Nobody cares this is the day I was born

Another birthday alone
La-la-lay, la-la-lay
Another birthday alone
La-la-lay, la-la-lay

I hit a bar in town, give my card to start a tab
Every day that we're here, well, we're never getting back
And so I'll drink for the confidence 'cause that's what I lack
And end up talking to strangers and find another plan
I end the night in the cab, head spinning, on my own
Watching pointless things and flicking through my phone
And would April be better? I guess I'll never know
I take the keys from my pocket and stumble into home

And I feel low, but I guess I could feel lower
I'm headin' down and now I'm on a roll

And everyone I know is hidden away
Trying to make their bodies clean again
And they don't want to celebrate
Nobody cares this is the day I was born
Always the month when parties come to an end
The same excuses from every friend
Another year and now we're here again
Nobody cares this is the day I was born

Another birthday alone
La-la-lay, la-la-lay
Another birthday alone
La-la-lay, la-la-lay

I feel low, but I guess I could feel lower
I'm headin' down and now I'm on a roll

And everyone I know is hidden away
Trying to make their bodies clean again
And they don't want to celebrate
Nobody cares this is the day I was born
Always the month when parties come to an end
The same excuses from every friend
Another year and now we're here again
Nobody cares this is the day I was born

Another birthday alone
La-la-lay, la-la-lay
Another birthday alone
La-la-lay, la-la-lay

She came in the bedroom
Lookin' like a photograph
Turned to face the window
Moonlight traced the contours of her back
Only she can see me
Shed the skin that guards the man
Sheltered by the ceiling
This is the start and end of everything

And we'll go it alone
'Cause no one will understand
How it just feels like flying
Here within the confines of your bed
How beautiful we blend

Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, thеn heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels

Unrequitеd love songs
Longing words we used to sing
Your faith was in the first one
We opened up our hearts to let them in
And now all these scars are keloids
Reminding us and cautioning
Rebuild what was destroyed
Turn it, then the chapter can begin

And we'll go it alone
'Cause no one will understand
How this just feels like flying
Here within the confines of your bed
How beautiful we blend
And, together, we soar
High over the old wasteland
We escaped the fire
And planted roots when there was nothin' left
How beautiful we blend

Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels
Crashin' in, head, then heels