Elemnt - A Song I Wrote at 4:32am While Tripping on Acid Lyrics

These thoughts have been around for As long as I can remember
They float around my mind like the Snow in December
That's me over there
Chillin alone under the weather
Crashing down to the ground like Those towers in September
Yeah I know That I'm cold
And i know that I'm bitter
Always Losing control of my temper
Just feelin too much pressure
It's Day six on this bender
Just tryna relax n re center
I Can't find any pleasures
Or any people that I treasure
I'm F*cked up, I cant keep it together
I feel like such a f*ckin failure
Keep telling myself that things will Always get better
I just have to keep going
I can never surrender, No never Surrender
I can never surrender, No never Surrender

All this shit up on my mind, its got Me reminiscin
Always thinkin bout the past only Clouded my inner vision
Tryna step out this mess , that's very Self inflicted
So I can move on with my future, Confident in my decisions

I know I'm just trippin, my regrets Locked me in this prison
I can't keep on sinnin
I'm just way to damn willin
Living life like I'm on a mission
Just here to keep on slippin
So it's here that im sittin
And I'm sipping
Pipe, it's twistin
Now I'm hittin
Now I'm twitchin
And I'm spittin with precision
Yeah my body thinnin
Eyes glistenin
Looking like im barely livin
It's myself that I be killin
The thought of death keeps me Grinnin
When he come for me I won't be Flinchin
Yeah it's Chillin
But this is how I'm feelin
Shut your mouth and learn to listen
Don't be askin f*ckin questions
Look for the signs that I've been Missing
You can do your own thing make You're own decisions
Just remember lifes a bitch
And she is very unforgiving.

But lately these thoughts seem to Carry more weight
Because they've left me here with no One but myself to hate.
Is it fate?
Trying to Teach me to appreciate?
Or do I over think and fabricate
Get irate and instigate
These things on which I suffocate?