Eli Rhodes - Numb Lyrics

[Intro]
Poppin' these pills, I can't feel my face
Three days deep, still in the same damn place
Studio lights burnin' through the haze
Mama keep callin', but I'm in my space

[Verse 1]
4 AM, watching numbers rise
Uploaded this pain, now it's digitized
Three bars deep, feeling paralyzed
But the beat still hits, got me mesmerized
Working class hero with a Xanny habit
Living through beats 'cause I can't just grab it
Reality's harsh, so I numb it down
Till these feelings float and I nearly drown

[Chorus]
I'm numb to the world, but these tracks still hurt
Mixing pills with pain till the lines get blurred
Three days no sleep, yeah, I'm seeing dirt
But these demons speak and the words just work
I'm numb, I'm numb
But somehow I feel it all
I'm numb, I'm numb
Watch me as I rise and fall

[Verse 2]
Mama's voicemail got me feeling sick
"Baby please come home," but I can't quit
Got these melodies trapped in my head
Rather be here than alone in bed
Chemical courage through the microphone
Raw emotions that I can't postpone
Working night shifts just to fund this dream
Now I'm faded, floating downstream

[Bridge]
The synths cut deep like razor blades
While I'm chasing hits through this purple haze
They say I'm lost, but I found my way
In this beautiful poison, I choose to stay

[Chorus]
I'm numb to the world, but these tracks still hurt
Mixing pills with pain till the lines get blurred
Three days no sleep, yeah, I'm seeing dirt
But these demons speak and the words just work
I'm numb, I'm numb
But somehow I feel it all
I'm numb, I'm numb
Watch me as I rise and fall

[Outro]
Studio lights dimming, sun's coming up
Empty prescription, half-empty cup
But these plays keep climbing, mama don't cry
I'm just trying to live before I die