The Elijah - where did you go? Lyrics

(Imma just one take this)

(Cuz you left me breathless)

(Haha)

All I ever wanted, was someone to hold me down

But now I know that fake is the only thing that I'm around

I would be happier if it was just me and this sound

And not with a girl in my car cruising around town

All I ever wanted was someone to put in effort

But they never do, they just leave me in the rain

Go to the ends of the earth for girls, it's such a shame

Anxiety killing me right now, making me go insane

I'm just done, f*ck everybody, all I feel is numb

Smoking hella weed, and I'm on my 8th shot of rum

Chest pains killing me, achenes in my tum

My heart was saying stay, but my head was yelling run

And damn I should've, should've know that you'd make an excuse

This is why I never wrote a love song to you

Because I'm in the game of love, so I'm bound to lose

Like I don't got a clue, who to date like who

I know it is bound to be a mistake, whatever I choose

God, I deserve a break, look at the bullshit I've been through

Heart had too many scars, my soul is f*cking bruised

You make me feel guilty, when I wasn't trusting you

Say what you want about my overthinking, I don't even care

Cuz I have never been wrong, I proved it right then and there

Girls ask for my number, but I'm too damn scared

I always played the games by the rules, but it ain't never fair

Supposed to go to Seattle this weekend, but you saying lies

Maybe your mom is pissed, but if you liked me you would try

All these deep talks we had, did you make it all up?

Or can you just tell me the truth, I know that I ain't enough

Juice really said it best, all these girls are the same

After all my experience, I mean, can you even blame me

Because these bitches play these mind games

Can't we just be real and say, what we are really thinking

Isn't that easier than messing with my mind?

All I want is a girl to call me mine

All I want is a girl to give me her time

All I want is to blow my f*cking head off with this f*cking .nine

F*ck living, at this f*cking point just let me die

You might be sad, but you'll get over it after you cry

And I can finally have the peace, that I always dreamed about

I don't care about heaven or hell, bitch I'm already in hell

I swear this is the worst that I ever felt

Because you gave me hope for the first time

I told my homie brett that something didn't feel right

I should've known that you would stab me one last time

So that's it, cut every f*cking person off

I got three people in my circle, so the rest can f*ck off

I don't care how you feel, you never cared how I feel

I know you never liked me bitch, can't we just keep it real