Elliot Crabb - Disintegrate Lyrics

I know it's hard to fight the feeling inside
But you don't need to hide you can be who you are outside
You can't fight the feeling
Or stray away from the pain
All you can do is put on a brave face and say
Man I'm drinking my problems away
Don't know what to do
Don't know what to say
What would happen if I died today
Just slit my wrists and watched my life fade away
I know that my mumma
She won't understand
Sobbing, why can't I just hold her hand
Cuz the darkness it's taken a hold
Don't wanna stay
Nah I just wanna go
Everyday a new day but that don't matter cuz all I see is grey
No amount of drugs can take away the pain that I'm feeling in my brain
I can feel it in my heart
It rips and shreds till I fall apart
I end up crying on the sofa
Begging for some help
But the only person that can help me is myself
I'm worried to let people down but then I remember that I ain't got a crown
I know it's hard to fight the feeling inside
But you don't need to hide you can be who you are outside
You can't fight the feeling
Or stray away from the pain
All you can do is put on a brave face and say
People keep texting yeah people keep calling
They say I heard the news just making sure that you're not feeling too blue
I say I'm fine
Tell them not to cry
But on the inside I'm screaming, begging for their help
But I just can't show it cuz if I do then they'll ring the bell
And then the doctors appear they all say the same
What's going on to make you feel this way
But I can't answer it cuz I just don't know
All I know is that I've lost a hold on the world
My head is spinning lost all sense of direction
Time ain't important it's just a distraction
Can't believe that I'm still here
That I've lived another day just waiting for my time to disappear
I know it's hard to fight the feeling inside
But you don't need to hide you can be who you are outside
You can't fight the feeling
Or stray away from the pain
All you can do is put on a brave face and say