Eloise Kate - Afraid of Myself Lyrics

Watching you scroll through instagram
I see a face come up again
Cements the image in my head that won't fade
I know I didn't know you then
I'm trying so hard to forget
But part of me just won't believe that you've changed
Sometimes I just wanna look at myself and say
This jealousy is driving me insane
Maybe i'm just afraid of myself
Cause it's a mess in my head and then I can't ask you for help
Cause I might push you away
This jealousy is driving me insane
And it's hard to be calm
When you take over me
I blame everyone
But in reality
I'm just afraid of myself
And my memories
My mind miss-leads me all the time
So are these thoughts only in mine
I know sometimes I make up my own problems
You think i'm going crazy
My mistakes make you hate me
And I can't even solve them
Maybe i'm just afraid of myself
Cause it's a mess in my head and then I can't ask you for help
Cause I might push you away
This jealousy is driving me insane
My minds illusions
Feeds the confusion
Another day, another reckless attempt to escape
I should get my priorities straight
Maybe i'm just afraid of myself
Cause it's a mess in my head and then I can't ask you for help
Cause I might push you away
This jealousy is driving me insane
And it's hard to be calm
When you take over me
I blame everyone
But in reality
I'm just afraid of myself
And my memories