Eloise Kate - The Reason Lyrics

If I could I would let go
Of memories to hard to hold
Either that or i'd re-write how each one ends
And if I did would you be different
For the first time in my life maybe listen
Like i'd been asking for since I was ten years old
I just wanted my father to be a man, that i'd know
But now you're the reason
I find it hard to believe in myself
Cause I couldn't change you
Couldn't rearrange the things you felt
Always playing the victim
You made me feel, it was my fault
That the bonds broke between us
Although I held on for so long.
Oh oh ohhh
And music is my therapy
I've cried beside the ivory
Every time I write a song with you in mind
Different words, different ink
But same meaning, Every time
Cause now you're the reason
I question and doubt everything
Find it so hard to love, even
Harder to trust now
Always playing the victim
But I know now it's not my fault
Cause with each disregard
To the wounds in my heart
You'd pour salt
Oh oh ohhh