Ely Waves - I shouldn't want u (feat. Ivri) Lyrics

To tell the truth, I still love you
I still want you when I shouldn't
Buried in pages of hatred, I wouldn't
Hurt you on purpose, girl I really couldn't
Live with myself, I would change for you baby
Been thinking and lately, I don't feel the same
Too many memories turned into pain
Fighting these urges to pull out a blade
Write on my arm but the crave never fades
Wrote f*ck you and love you, right in the same place
Still trapped in your maze, chasing your flame
Touching your embers but never your blue
Indigo hue, on my face, every time
When I look at you and can't face
What's in my mind
You just don't love me, I'll never know why
And I got to accept it
I gave all I had and wasn't enough
Wonder if my love is ever enough for somebody
Cause honestly, I never had anybody, who ever just me loved me for me
And nobody else
I just don't know what to do with myself
Most of the time, I'm screaming for help
But nobody notices, I just keep going alone
On my honest shit
Lacking that confidence, loving you comes with a consequence
Emotions are bottomless, I don't feel happiness
I'm doing numbers but still I just wanted us prominent
Yeah, yeah, I'll never get that though and
To tell the truth, I still love you
I still want you when I shouldn't, uh
Buried in pages of hatred, I wouldn't
Hurt you on purpose, girl I really couldn't