erica - life update Lyrics

I've been typing in circles for years
Dot the Is and backspace the tears
Some days I wish I was better than I am
Without the darkness, you'd lose any damn you give about me
So why would I start
Breaking my own heart
I've been listening to the leaves, hoping to catch a thought of you
Between the birds and all the bees, I come back each day or two
And sometimes I sit and contemplate how it would be to feel alive again
With the light that you gave, well maybe I could learn, but then
Why should I start
Breaking my own heart
Oh, why would I start
Re-breaking my own heart
Cause when it gets cold, it gets colder for me
And opening my eyes makes it too hard to see
I'm not saying I'm crazy but aren't you?
I wish I could see it too
Somebody told me to be free, I had to learn to fly with wings apart
But that doesn't tell me how to fix a broken heart