Ethel Cain - Growing Pains Lyrics

Tear stained carpet
White knuckled grip
I can't forget him
Or forgive what he did
I thought i could love you
But i can't take another hit
It's only been 6 weeks
And i'm already like this

You took me out
And taught me how to skate
With blood on my knees
I told you i would be ok
But you knew nothing's that easy
So you said yes when i asked you to stay
Cause for the first time in a long time
I don't want you to go away

I hate that i can't love you
But i'm just in the way
But you say i won't be here forever
And you'll wait as long as it takes

Steal away to meet you when the moon is full
Wearing shoes that don't even fit me, hoping you'll think I look cool
I hope you do
I hope you know that I think you look f*cking cool

Staying up to see you when you get off of work
But you leave without touching me and you don't know just how bad it hurts
When i dreamed for weeks of you being my first

I hate that i can't love you
But i'm just in the way
But you say i won't be here forever
And you'll wait as long as it takes