Explicit - Insanity Lyrics

Are you afraid? If so will you stay or will you run away?
I live in the dark where my demons can play
I live off of pain so I'm filled with this rage
I tried to love but it built up more hate
I bottle it down I'm suppressing this flame
Self destruct so I can let some escape
Cuz if not I'd prolly blow out my brains
Call me insane cuz I am
Shit I don't even know who I am
Tried to make friends but they all ran
All I ever did was lend out my hand
I guess it's too bad that I'm damned
A lone lost demon on this land
You'll never know why I'm always mad
You cant save a soul that's turned black. No...

I am being consumed oh so rapidly
My mentality is vanishing sanity
I wonder if I will ever live happily
Or if that thought is just another fantasy
How much I can take is full at max capacity
Love for the lust of the bloods got me ravaging
Hate in my veins from the pain what a tragedy
As I fade away laugh at death with insanity

I'm a f*ck up hiding from what I f*cked up
Faking emotions but Ive had enough of
Trying to help but breaking what I touch
I will Die in this hell so hang me by my guts
Deep inside of me Im breaking down violently
From all the feelings that just feel like trying me
Im quiet see because of this thing called anxiety
I don't want no friends cuz they all just lie to me
You cant save me now so don't even try with me
All the lights are out bitch you do not frighten me
The only thing I like to see is blood from the knife on me
Every night I break down with silent screams
Look in the mirror see my evil smiling
You'll know true fear when my demon ignites in me
Yes I know I'm crazy (Huh)
That's only describing it vaguely (Ay)
I'm only what they made me (Exhale)
Into nothingness I am fading (Yuh)
It's okay to hate me (Okay)
But please don't mistake me (Ay)
My hearts gone numb from breaking (Break)
Trust has just betrayed me (Betray)