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Oh the poison in me now
Oh cut my breath
Oh I'm going under
Here it's all black
And I just need a sea
To fill with all of my tears
And drown on my own

Oh it's enough looking around
While their lives are going on
I've just cold blood on my arms
And pulled out hair in my hands
Oh I just wanna sleep now
Oh as long as I can
Agonising over you
Over the mess that you left

And I just need to drink
Those drugs they say make you feel
Like you're less alone
Oh I wish I could look around
While their lives are going on
And finally be part of those
That mad world they like so much

Oh I'll keep you in my mind
When I commit suicide
So I just wanna cry until
My lungs are full of tears
The voices in my head
Will be silenced by death
It's time for pain
To leave my veins
And I have realised
The roots you've put inside
Of me were full of thorns
And even if you watched me die
You'll still hurt me and then and try
To push me down to oblivion

It is blurry so unclear
Is this fake or is this real?
Has it always been like that
They control your mind instead
But who is they?
Who am I?
I don't mind
Who am I and who is they?
No one minds it anyway
Tell me human, where's your God right no?
While you're praying
You forget your path
Make a choice
And decide your world
According to your death
Murdered by bad mental health
Some can't eat, I'm getting fat
Is it better this or that?
Cause my hobby is body shaming too.