I'm Not the Same Video (MV)

I never wanna wake up
I want a world that's made up
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna see it
And everything around me
It doesn't feel the same way
So I don't wanna be here
& I don't wanna see it
& if I'm not there
Then don't pretend that its all OK
'Cos it makes no sense to me
& if I'm not there
Then don't pretend that it's all OK
When it's not the same
If I can't pretend
I'm not the same
Let's go back to how we used to be
Don't try to change
It's all on me
Just know I mean it when I say I'm sorry
I'm shutting out the whole world
I don't want them to see me
I just wanna lay here
But I don't wanna stay here
Can you not wait for me?
(Can you not wait for me?)
Can you not wait for something more?
Wait for me to get there
If I ever get there
& if I'm not there
Then don't pretend that its all OK
'Cos it makes no sense to me
& if I'm not there
Then don't pretend that it's all OK
When it's not the same
If I can't pretend
I'm not the same
Let's go back to how we used to be
Don't try to change
It's all on me
Just know I mean it when I say I'm sorry
If I'm not there
Then don't pretend that its all OK
If I can't pretend
I'm not the same
Let's go back to how we used to be
Don't try to change
It's all on me
Just know I mean it when I say I'm sorry
I can't pretend
I'm not the same
Can we go back to how we used to be
I tried to change
It won't leave me
Just know I mean it when I say I'm sorry