Alright Video (MV)

I remember being younger
Feelings I was feeling
It was so hard to control them
Attracted to these women
Living in this big division
I'm only 8 years old
This goes against my whole religion

And I won't lie
This shit is kinda hard for me to talk about
Can't pursue my mothers dreams
That's just something I was worried bout
Tried to find some ways to tell her
It was something I would joke about

I knew she wanted me with a nice young man
But mama, let me tell you
That just wasn't in the plan
I wish I could prevent this
I did everything I can
I tried to just forget this
But I swear, I just can't

I just can't
I did everything I could
And I wish you understood
I wish that I was cured
All this pain that I've endured
I wish you saw the good in my heart

I was 8, right?
Living in fright
Living a fight
With myself
Lonely cold nights
Nah, this ain't right
Nothing in sight
Will I be alright?

I remember 7th grade
My best friend
She asked me if I'm gay
And if I was, then that's okay
I don't even know what that means
What the f*ck is being gay?
Girl, please don't label me

But I thank her
She shined the light
She helped me lift off
All the anchors
I never came to terms
With myself
So when I finally did
I released all of my anger

I remember when I finally realized
Everybody started moving funny
Crying in the street lights
So I resorted to the reefer
I just wanna be high
Forget all of my demons
I was battling a huge fight

When I told my momma
She was in denial
Baby, maybe this a phase
And I guess she had me wonder
What if this ain't who I am?
All this pressure that I'm under

But 5 years later
It still ain't a phase
Mama, this is who I am
And I guess she just forgave
'Cause now she does accept me
And she tries not to neglect me
And she knows this makes me happy
So I guess that makes her happy too
I know that you still love me
And I need you to just trust me
I just wanna make you comfortable
I'm sorry if I hurt you
But our bond is so untouchable

I'm gay, right?
Living in fright
Living a fight
With myself
Lonely cold nights
Nah, this ain't right
Nothing in sight
I'm gonna be alright

At the end
She made it known
That her love was always pure
She helped me get
Through it all
And was there
Throughout all the f*cking hurt
She always kept it real
And yeah, that was a perk
She'd always mend my heart
Endless, love care and support
And never left me
Every time I f*cking fell apart

I love you mom
Thank you for everything
You made me strong
I know you didn't want this
But pushed through it all
And I can't thank you enough
You're so amazing, ma

I'm gay, right?
Living in light
Living so proud
With myself
Happy late nights
Yeah, this is right
I knew that I would be alright
I knew that I would be alright
I knew that I would be alright
I grow stronger everyday
And I love who I've became
So everything is alright