Fleez - I Wish This Shit Would Change Lyrics

My name is Fleez and I'm addicted to this feeling
Sometimes it's so hard to breathe
I take a puff and I get lifted
Always go to the extremes
I take a sip and I feel distant
Wear a mask to hide the screams
Man I swear, shit is never what it seems
Yeah, this shit is never what it seems
This shit is never what it seems

Heart on my sleeve type shit
But all this pain got me on my f*cking cold nights shit
I been rocking so much polo
On these cold night shifts
If they ever say I'm nothing
Well I'm still fly, shit
I got a couple hunnit thousand in my bank account
The number of the bitches in the back
About the same amount
But they ain't never loved me
So my self esteem been stuck on that
All they do is use me
Then they don't f*cking hit me back

Anxiety hit my line
Like what's up, how you been?
I haven't seen you in awhile
I heard you're doing really well
You got a job and friends who try
Last time I visited, all I did was make you cry
You probably thought that I was gone
Well now I'm back, I have revived
I know I caused a lot of struggle
And I'm sorry for that
But I feel like I can't let go, I'm way too attached
And I don't know what to do, so I'ma put you on that
Cause you ain't shit, you deserve to die
And I'm not sorry for that

Old me still comes back to haunt me
I swear sometimes it feels like ain't nobody really love me
Sometimes I feel so distant
I wish this shit would change
But maybe it's just cause I'm different
I been through a lot of shit
I been through so much pain
I guess that's why I listen
The scars hover over my veins
I'll never be the same, yeah

I'm just a little different
I'm just a little different
I'll never be the same
I wish this shit would change
I'm done with playing games
I wish this shit would change, yeah
I wish this shit would change