On the Edge Video (MV)

I'm everything and nothing all at once
I love you deeply, then I push you far
Don't leave me here, I'm terrified
But when you get too close, I hide
I'm chasing feelings, but they slip away
One minute I'm drowning, the next I'm okay
I'm lost in the chaos I create
Caught between love and hate
I'm living on the edge of me
Can't find where I'm supposed to be
One moment I'm high, the next I fall
Don't know myself, don't know at all
I scream for help, then shut you out
I'm so sure, then filled with doubt
I'm living on the edge of me
Trying to break free
I feel too much, then not at all
My heart's a wreck behind this wall
I crave your touch, but fear your stay
I need you near, but push you away
I'm the storm and I'm the calm
The peace, the rage, all in my palm
I tear you down, then pull you close
I love the least, what I need the most
I'm living on the edge of me
Can't find where I'm supposed to be
One moment I'm high, the next I fall
Don't know myself, don't know at all
I scream for help, then shut you out
I'm so sure, then filled with doubt
I'm living on the edge of me
Trying to break free
I'm scared you'll leave, but if you stay
I'll find a reason to run away
I fight for love, but I start the war
I can't be whole, I need more
I'm living on the edge of me
Can't find where I'm supposed to be
One moment I'm high, the next I fall
Don't know myself, don't know at all
I scream for help, then shut you out
I'm so sure, then filled with doubt
I'm living on the edge of me
Trying to break free
I'm living on the edge, I'm lost at sea
Trying to find the real me