Friggy - I Never Will Lyrics

I been sitting here for three years
Watching you from a distance
Normally I don't care
But not in the instance
You just wouldn't work it out
Despite my persistence
And no matter how far I got
I saw you in my visions
And I could never let go
Of that shit we had
It wasn't all I wanted
And that made me mad
Having you not knowing
Just made me sad
And I could never let go
Cause you were all I had
It came in a second
Never saw it before
I hated you once
But your image restored
When you held my hand
You warned me about something
Little did I know
It was you I'd end up loving
I thought it was nothing
But my heart told me different
And when you fell to the fire
It was me you had changed
Thought the night was games
Till I felt the flames
The rage that built in my mind
The same guilt that would keep my blind
Till now
Since then
I'm still asking how
I felt this way back then
Others get it later
I think I envy them
But if I didn't feel
Then I'd be like them
Not knowing what I'm missing out on
And not understanding
How people feel
When I hear you laughing
And we still talk now
Every once in a while
Buts a god damn shame
I can't see your smile
If I could take back now
What I did back then
This and that
I got a list in my head
I should have told you then
But I knew nothing would change
I can't tell you now
Cause I know nothing would change