Fuzz Theory - All I Am (feat. black sheep) Lyrics

(Ay,yo)
(Boom, Josh is a loser)
(Alright this how its gonna work)
(Ay, yuh)

Is this all I am?
Walk in the streets in my new shoes
Talking to people with old news
I been sitting inside
Doing work makes the time go by
I'm a sitting stone, but my eyes don't shine
I'm a pretty boy, but my heart still lies
On a starry night, but my dreams still cry

Uh, is this all I am?
Bitch who knew I would get this far?
In my eyes I see a yellow world
My head is drifting away
I'm still carbon-in-foot
But I'm as simple as you
I soldier through time in a marble of blue
A writer of sound, just stuck in a zoo
I cannot sit here and be misused
Uh, yeah, is this all I am?

Uh, yeah is this all I am?
I sit here and die
Writing some words makes the time go by
My head's in the clouds
My legs stay planted
In this world my thoughts are so rancid
I'm a sitting stone, but my eyes don't shine
I'm a pretty boy, but my heart still lies
On a starry night, but my dreams still cry
(room is, room is, room is, dead)

Room is spinning
I can't feel my feet
To find the strength to get out of bed
My room is a prison
Just like my head
I might as well be basically dead

But I tell myself it's just a dream
Hoping one day I'll start to fly
Inspiration and cre-creation isn't enough
When you don't even wanna get up

Damn, I'm outta luck
I need a hand
Mine can't do shit
What is the meaning of life when you're leaving your happy behind?
Is this all I am?
Depression, anxiety hand in hand
Obsession, compulsion, party, slow dance
I'm not afraid of dying
So I might as well take a step off a roof

I hope I don't fail
Or else I'll be taken away
Getting help feels like being in jail
Strip you naked, put your hands under nails
Is this all I am?

A starving artist with a broken hand?
I try to spill but my mind's on end
Bitches flock to LA that's the promised land
A religion of pills and bills
Don't get it confused
This world is abuse
It's run by old men; they're tricking youth
Pills on pills like being happy is single use

I'm so delirious, but I don't punch walls when I'm furious
I'm not morbid; I'm curious
Chewed off my hands just to think out loud 'cause I know that they ain't hearing us
Damn, is this all I am? (haha)

Ay, yuh working harder, but I'm losing my vision
My regrets build as I search for a legacy
Vacation feels like a waste of my time
Using taxes and dollars, waiting for a eulogy
Maybe something will help to ease my tendencies
Too stubborn to enjoy life
Stuck with these feelings of wrong and right
But I'm paralyzed by this parasite
My thoughts won't stop for a minute. Why?
And I can't help but to waste away
And my story's the only foil in my life
And I can't love with my whole heart
But my mind's so terrified of something new
Girl, I've been missing the day I fell
I was never in love, I was see-through
Sitting under apple trees, I've been missing my hometown
My image evolving
Too many nights eating ramen
Don't remember that boy that I saw then
My legs don't run as far
My pattern for love ends the second time
And I pray to God I don't lose my mind
But there's something wrong I don't recognize

Maybe that's all that I am
Stupid kid, f*ck a legacy
I don't think I want you to remember me
Just some Lego bricks, no instructions inside
Is this all I am?
Charismatic cause I can't even care
Piece of plastic cause I don't even dare to step out of line
Maybe I should rewrite my own life
Got a million things in my mental
School's a bitch, f*ck Java, got a new job, my life feels like karma
Taylor Swift, got everything I want but I'm sick of it
I've been watching my phone for like half of it
My computer, the other, my other half
Just been waiting for hours for time to tick
Just wondering, is this all I am?