G0nz0 - Still Breathing... Lyrics

Finally going home
Exhausted you could tell just by the tone
Still breathing but the breathing kinda slow
Been through a lot valleys but this valley kinda low
I ain't blaming tho I'm just thanking God that it's over
Seen too many miracles to get a chip up on my shoulder
But now that I'm older I thank him for the rain
But little did I know that up ahead were hurricanes

Walk into my room everything just how I left it
Bible on my table been a week since I read it
Might as well read it now if not then I'll regret it
But I just went through hell and my bed lookin like heaven
I know that God will get it man it's been a long day
IVs surgeries man I've come a long way
So I go and hit the hay but not before I pray
Thank you Lord I promise that tomorrow I'll obey

Night one not gunna lie was pretty hard
I didn't sleep much but it's not like that's bizarre
Heading to the couch cause I know that's as far as I'm gunna go
Two weeks till I can drive a car
Cant be that long so I ain't gon make a fuss
But being isolated is the devil's favorite lunch
It only took a week before I fell back into lust
I wonder why I was so weak my Bible still collecting dust

So I go to pick it up cause I don't wanna fall again
I wanna live a holy life I'm not a slave to sin
God has won the victory this don't feel like a win
I hear him saying that he missing me but I ain't listening
I'd rather try to fix my misery than give my sin to him
Now my history repeats and instantly I move an inch
Away from all my friends result to social distancing
But how real is a friend if they don't know the truth within

8 weeks have passed now almost at the ninth
Back to reading my Bible just had to give it time
Back to chasing purity and back to writing rhymes
Finally Getting back to normal but I'm still not at my prime
Feel a little pain again but I'm gon be alright
Next week I got the biggest show of my life
I gotta be alright
I have to be alright
If not I'll start a fight
The last pop the Left dropped
Now they talking bout the right

Hol up nah this can't be happening I'm finally getting better
I finally found consistency and got my life together
Submerged I can't tell what's rain or tears on my sweater
Now your telling me that up aheads another storm to weather
Got these IVs tubes sticking out of my chest
Spiritual life is wreck
And for the pain percocets
They help the cuts but these wounds travel deeper than flesh
They keep me up so I can never meet the cousin of death
Lord why is it me
Tell me why is it me
I thought you wanted me to rap and preach to set people free
Now I need a whole tube just to sit up and breathe
With my biggest show happening at the end of the week
Man it was supposed to be me
Man it was supposed to be me
I was supposed to be artist that would show them the king
With some brothers that rock they've had some food from the top
They was gon elevate my name to preach your name to the flock

Man it's about time I learned this lesson
Take a step back and truly take a second
Check my heart and if the veins that's connected
Stem from my God or the pride on the guest list
No matter how wrong it might be I invite him in
He makes me feel good doesn't every sin?
But he's the reason that my brothers looked like stepping stones if I did that show there's no telling how my pride would spin
So now I see all of this pain as a blessing
Thanking God he ain't let me stray from heaven
All this down time made me raise the question
Am I doing this for God or to make a good impression
I hope you all can learn from this story that I'm bleeding
You can never be content with attention or achievement
It's all very fleeting that's the message he was speaking and
His breath brings healing so maybe that's the reason that I'm
Still breathing
Yeah maybe that's the reason that I'm still breathing
Yeah uh still breathing still breathing
Still breathing still breathing
Still breathing
Yeah maybe that's the reason that I'm
Still breathing still breathing still breathing huh here I am I tell em

I'm still breathing homie here I am
I said here I am I said here I am
I said I told em I'm still breathing man here I am
I only fear I am
I told em here I am lets go