I close my eyes
I'm in your room
You're taking your clothes off
Then off comes your skin
You press my head
Into your chest
It wasn't fair then and it isn't now and
I'm sorry I wasn't around
Bookends bursting
From pushing outwards
Towards a different place
A Calm I can't forgive and forget
Blood oaths bruising
From peeling scabs
I missed it then and I miss it now and
I'm sorry I wasn't around
But you
Vanished like a ghost that came in through a dream turned into a nightmare
And its true
I'll wake up feeling better some day soon
But for now I'll sit and shake the whole night through
Callow
Finding myself sketching traces
Of memories that never happened
I wish I was just as devastating
