Pouring Out the Poisons, for They Are My Chains Video (MV)

The bottle hasn't conquered me, like it wanted
Don't get me wrong, it holds the key
To usher in my insanity
Yes, I know I can be dramatic
But Lord, I'm dying
To close my mouth around the fuse
I keep on missing
So if you could, please
Pick me up when I am down
My hands are trained to run this ship aground
A swollen liver for a golden crown
I'm half alive
And half alone again
Or fully alive
And fully alone again
I obsess about the girls I like
Well past the boundaries
Desperate to be seen
Yet desperate to be left alone
Carrie never talked to me
But my eyes were glued to her
Her and her boyfriend
And the muscles bursting out his shirt
I'm afraid of facing myself no more
Pouring out the poisons
For they are my chains
No more fear of choking on my phlegm
I'm high on Jesus and mushroom stems
I feel everything beyond the end
And it's beautiful, just like everyone
I finally see I'm beautiful
Just like everyone