Grayson Walker - Wonderment Lyrics

Wonder how to live
Wonder how to heal
Only know to give
Never to receive
Wonder how to love
Wonder how to leave
Only know to speak
Never to believe
Wonder where it's going this time
Would I even know if you lied?
Quick to trust and be deceived
But what is love if not belief?
What is trust but blind faith grounded in your mind games
I can only lie in wait and see if you will lie again
Don't know why I try again, more hopeless than romantic
Wanna see the sky again, more depressive than manic
But it's not as bad as it seems, I mean
I believe the chase is all a part of the dream
Conceiving, believing, preceding the achievement you see
Seeking love means that you cannot be afraid to
Appease, concede, leave, and repeat
Wonder how to live
Wonder how to heal
Only know to give
Never to receive
Wonder how to love
Wonder how to leave
Only know to speak
Never to believe
Wonder how to stop, time in a box
The key inside, no way to unlock
A fear of mine, the fear resides
Deep inside the heart
The plans I see are fantasy
Only 'til they're not
Sparks in the light were once shots in the dark
I refuse to choose between real and artistic
And I'll never write a lyric that could make me a statistic
But the hardest part of being different is the indecision
Must I be relatable so the indifferent see the vision?
What I am, I am, and I am so much they're not
What I have, I have, and I have so much I wanted
But my drive, my pride, deep inside it wants more
There's a dark side to ambition and I constantly
Wonder how to live with myself, my hand dealt, and I
Wonder how to heal, the feeling is real, seeing how I
Only know to give, your cup is filled to the brim, but I
(Never do) to receive, believe me I'm healing, seeing why I
Wonder how to love, is it enough, or just too much, I
Wonder how to leave, not only how, but when, 'cause I
Only know to speak, I think out loud, but then it's true I
Never (do) to believe, the feeling's complete
You see why I wonder how to