Maya's Song Video (MV)

I've made so many mistakes
Didn't see the patterns, till it was too late
And while I know that it's hard
I'll do better for you, cause I know who we are
Memories of the past
Are filling my head, surrounding me
This obsession won't last
'Cause I won't let it keep drowning me

And I was never enough for her
Addicted to her touch, hanging on every word
My nurse and my torturer, beautiful was she
My verses more on her than they were on me

What's the f*cking point of crying when I don't need to be crying
(Miserable and) And I'm going to stay that way as I watch myself dying
(Love's a) Twisted joke if all it does is cause me pain
F*cking sadistic broken woman, driving me insane

Unconscious as addiction kicks me
But blaming her won't help to fix me
Or loving you, although I wish it could
We're monsters outside, children inside
Longing for the day we win by
Doing absolutely nothing that, we, should
That we should

She didn't satisfy me alone
Acting as my vice, turn me into a drone
I tried so many things to self-improve and take a stand
Just sunk deeper into it, I failed to be a man

What's the f*cking point of trying when I don't want to be trying
(Miserable and) And I'm going to stay that way as I watch myself dying
(Time's a) Twisted thing if all it does is cause me pain
It's no crime to have a drink again, you're driving me insane

Unconscious as addiction kicks me
But giving in won't help to fix me
Or loving you, although I wish it could
We're monsters outside, children inside
Longing for the day we win by
Doing absolutely nothing that, we, should
That we should...

(Verse)
You reignite the fire in my heart
Haven't felt like this since her and I fell apart
My nurse and my confidant, beautiful are you
Hoping against hope that you're not just my number two

(Pre-Chorus)
What's the f*cking point of dying when I don't want to be dying
(Miserable and) And I'm going to stay that way until I just start trying
(Love's a) Twisted joke but I'll still let it cause me pain
So I'll just keep on laughing as it's driving me insane

Unconscious as addiction kicks me
But giving up won't help to fix me
Or loving you, although I wish it could
We're monsters outside, children inside
Longing for the day we win by
Doing absolutely nothing that we should
That we should

That we should