Haisei - The First Lyrics

Let go of my hand and let me fall
What will happen if I try to end it all
Don't call my phone I won't pick up your call
It's time for my frozen heart to thaw
It looks like we are headed towards the end
I do not know if my heart will ever mend
You know that I never wanna make more friends
Cause I'm afraid of losing them

You are my example
You are the first
Man this shit's a handful
You really are the worst
I cannot deal with this shit
Get my name out of your mouth
If we can't lift our spirits
Then I know that it won't work out

I know its complicated, even though it could be simple
Don't show me your smile, I don't wanna see your dimples
Girl you got me weak
Got me bent down on my knees
Yeah you've stolen everything
Yeah you stole my heart from me
Let go of my hands
I won't see you again
Can't believe I thought
That we both could be friends
But, mistakes are made
And it is my job to fix them
All the shit I did
I will have to own up to them

If a person's greatness is measured in size
Then I'm a negative, shit I don't even try
Just wanted to go ahead and jump off and die
It's better than laying in my bed while I cry
I don't want to die
I wanna be alive
Even it's it painful
I'm not the type of guy
Who wants to change into someone worse
Even if I never
Am taken again
It's gonna be alright

You are my example
You are the first
Man this shit's a handful
You really are the worst

I cannot deal with this shit
Get my name out of your mouth
If we can't lift our spirits
Then I know that it won't work out