[ Featuring Sampha ]
One of my earliest memories was blood shed (ugh)
You see on the ends all the crazy things you see through a window
You grew up on a household where everybody hates the black bread
You fight for the last slice like we Kimbo
Winter time walks to primary school, we took the slip road
Had to climb five flight of stairs, we couldn't lift bro
Hard tryna fix a broken home, this home been broke
I got shipped to Ghana, missed the primary school disco
To think that was eighteen years ago makes me feel old (suh-suh-suh-suh)
Yo, you could avoid an outcome so much it turns inevitable
Pops made mistakes, I still put him on a pedestal
And I can only blame myself for gettin' involved
I was sittin' on a rock like Fred Flintstone
Prayin' to the Lord that a fien'll ring the flip phone
The side effect of memories (the side effect)
It's weighing on me mentally (it's weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
The side effect of memories (the side effect)
It's weighing on me mentally (it's weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
And now the consequences PTSD, there's jealousy and envy
I'm sat alone, I'm thinkin' everybody's out to get me
I try and change, but my destiny it just won't let me
I seen everyone progress, except me
I been in prison, in my memory I'm free but not free
Chest pains, I think I need Ibuprofen
Got cold feet with insomnia, I had no sleep
You seen your bro get stabbed and hope he don't sleep
I wrapped my vest around his belly, say he won't bleed
He's havin' nightmares now, he started sippin' codeine
Never had co-de's, but never had a (?)
Should've been more of these, and poppin' off in Sony
And I can only blame myself for gettin' involved
I was sittin' on a rock like Fred Flintstone
Prayin' to the Lord that a fien'll ring the flip phone
The side effect of memories (the side effect)
It's weighing on me mentally (it's weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
The side effect of memories (the side effect)
It's weighing on me mentally (it's weighing)
That can be a friend to me, or an enemy
