Heart To Heart - the (Q)uiet War Lyrics

This is war.
I finally know what I'm fighting for: some peace of mind.
Somewhere I can rest my head,
But one can only dream.
Let's raise the stakes as high as they'll go.
I'll take this whole goddamn thing down with me.
Don't f*cking talk to me about empathy.
I'm a raging wildfire
And I'm burning out of control.
I can't reconcile with myself
If I can't recognize this world
Do I need to learn to let go?
To let go again?
If you're dying to know,
I'm trying but I'm failing myself.
And I'm dying to know all of the reasons.
There's nowhere to go.
The truth is we are all alone.
I'll keep searching for that something
To keep me patient.
To keep me trusting.
But I won't remain arrogant
To all the pressure breathing down my neck and
What did you get out of it?
I hope you relive every moment.
Ruined my life like you own it.
I know how it feels to be used.
This is all everyone has been waiting for
Their pound of flesh.
Like compliments that suit them best.
I'm driving but no ones at the wheel.
This time these thoughts, they aren't mine
I'm looking at the deepest parts of my soul,
So hard sometimes to remember it all.
My whole worlds turning upside down,
With my face falling straight to the ground.
I've already spit out mouthfuls of dirt.
It doesn't really matter what you've heard
As long as it comes out my mouth.
I may be cursed, or maybe I shouldn't assume the worst.
Maybe I should just feel blessed.
Maybe it's another test of faith
That I'll fail anyway
That's just the price I pay.
I run it over in my mind a thousand times and still can't find the words to say.