Xannies and these drugs
Think I do this shit too often
Tryna live my life
While I'm nailing in my coffin
Tryna find myself but
I think I lost it, think I lost it
Xannies and these drugs
Think I do this shit too often
Tryna live my life
While I'm nailing in my coffin
Tryna find myself but
I think I lost it, think I lost it
Why you always pressing
Yeah, I know my life's a mess
But I'm not open to suggestions
I'm off the purp thinking I'ma be a legend
But got off on the wrong foot
I'm bad with first impressions
I fight with shadows that are buried in reflections
Been a long struggle through anxiety, depression
Been a long day, the time has barely moved a second
Who would've know your silence is what deafens
I used to care 'bout what you thought of me
What is meant to be ain't always what it ought to be
Start my day off by crushin' up a quarter bean
Crushin' up another half just so I can fall asleep
I always struggled with my inner piece
Always hit my valley before I hit my peak
Still look forward to the future when it's looking bleak
I know that will be the death of me
Xannies and these drugs
Think I do this shit too often
Tryna live my life
While I'm nailing in my coffin
Tryna find myself but
I think I lost it, think I lost it
Xannies and these drugs
Think I do this shit too often
Tryna live my life
While I'm nailing in my coffin
Tryna find myself but
I think I lost it, think I lost it
Often times it feels like I'm slothing by
I'm lost inside
You called me out
Then you crossed the line
Often times it feels like I'm slothing by
I'm lost inside
You called me out
Then you crossed the line
This anxiety, depression
It's how the cold road goes with a notoriety obsession
Diamonds on my bezel I just like the iridescence
Going up a level while I wallow in repentance
Rolling out the dealership
Paper's all signed up
Feel like I caught the dealer chip
I'm raising the blinds up
I was just beginning to kill it
But now my time's up
All I got's skill and a vision, a little blind luck
I been winning straight to the finish
And I ain't primed up
Only, only, only got a second to wind up
Every second got me stressing
Like I'm messing my mind up
They say life is a blessing, but I didn't sign up
Xannies and these drugs
Think I do this shit too often
Tryna live my life
While I'm nailing in my coffin
Tryna find myself but
I think I lost it, think I lost it
Xannies and these drugs
Think I do this shit too often
Tryna live my life
While I'm nailing in my coffin
Tryna find myself but
I think I lost it, think I lost it