Where's the order
Little kids proceed to murder
We moving further
Away from good, we crossed the border
We getting caught up
Forgetting this ain't how we brought up
I'm tryna make a million dollars for my sons and daughters
But these are topics for another day
I'm putting work tryna make it homey anyway
I lost my mind babe I think I might just run away
But you could send me love and kisses then I might just stay
Expired condoms in my wallet I ain't getting laid
But I ain't bothered see my focus is on getting paid
See i been thinking way too much man I been so afraid
Bout what'll happen when my dues are finally getting paid
Situation at home is getting critical
Mom and dad been arguing a lot they getting physical
But I guess it's typical, when love is just a myth homey it's pitiful
And times is getting difficult
God don't really care man it's been visible
You don't even know
Bout the shit that we been facing it's unusual
I pray to God I leave a mark before I even go
Will I amount to something?, God I really need to know
You don't even know
You don't even know
We all got different God's but the same devil
Feeding you fables they tryna keep your mind stable
You can't even ask questions even if you're able
Shits been confusing since the time of Cain and Abel
My momma's up in heaven, or so I hope
She been gone for 4 years it's been hard to cope
Sometimes I wanna end it all, so I grab the rope
And tie it to the ceiling, ugh!, Then I start to choke
Cause I don't have a reason to live
I wanna take it all cause I don't have a reason to give
Melancholy my friend cause I got a reason to grieve
I won't bow my head cause I ain't got a reason to believe
I say no to drugs please don't spark it
I don't pop pills homey please don't test me
My whip a piece of shit
Please go park it
And Imma keep working till I buy my dad a Bentley
Then we could take a ride with the music loud
Then I'll finally hear him say that I made him proud
But it really means nothing since my momma's not around
And I'll probably never see her because I'm hellbound
Too much on my mind baby I been thinking
Hard to take a breath, baby I been sinking
Tryna write my thoughts and so I put the ink in
I need an escape, so I resort to drinking
You don't even know
Bout the shit that we been facing it's unusual
I pray to God I leave a mark before I even go
Will I amount to something?, God I really need to know
You don't even know
You don't even know