Holmes - I'll Stay Lyrics

I remember thinking I was in love
I remember thinking you were sent from up above
I remember late nights having feelings of
Longing and hoping that I could be the one that you want
I haven't felt this hope in years
I know it's bound to disappear
I saw the warnings but I didn't adhere
Now I don't really wanna be here
"I love you you're good enough for me"
That's what you said, I didn't know you were lying
You were the first to give me everything
Only to rip it away ignoring all my pleas
Why did you give me that sense of hope?
Only to kill my heart like you had it in a scope
Told me to trust, what's that? I don't even know
Maybe I'm meant to be alone
But I fight, I fight with myself every night
And I lie, I lie saying that I'm fine
Late nights with no more tears to cry
I feel like it's just me myself and I
Yeah, yeah, cruising down the freeway
Screaming out "Love Is Dead"
Till my lungs seem to fade away
And I can't understand a word you say
Yeah It feels like I'm lost, and I think that's where I'll stay
I said I was done with love
That is until I thought I'd finally found the one
You seemed so good for me I couldn't seem to stay away
You told me everything I thought I needed you to say
I felt so trapped inside your love
To the point where I almost couldn't give it up
But later on I learned you betrayed my trust
Don't know if I'll love again cuz I feel so done
If I told you I was all on my own would you believe me?
Would you believe when I said don't go? Cuz I'm needing
Someone to help with the emotional healing
Instead of cutting me open, and leaving me here bleeding
But I fight, I fight with myself every night
And I lie, I lie saying that I'm fine
Late nights with no more tears to cry
I realize it's just me, myself, and I
Yeah, yeah, cruising down the freeway
Screaming out "Love Is Dead"
Till my lungs seem to fade away
And I can't understand a word you say
Yeah It feels like I'm lost and I think that's where I'll stay
I shut down the idea of love once more
Then I met you, and I reopened up that door
Should've known better, I don't know why I did
For some reason I thought you'd be different
I gave you all of me
And you used me like it was nothing
I built you up, you let me down
Now I push my head under the water trying to drown
Cuz If I have to say goodbye
Just one more time
I think I'll die
Already dead on the inside
I'm in desperate need of love that no one can provide
Yeah, yeah, cruising down the freeway
Screaming out "Love Is Dead"
'Til my lungs seem to fade away
And I can't understand a word you say
Yeah It feels like I'm lost and I think that's where I'll stay