Howling Sycamore - Initiation Lyrics

I stare at the void in this heart
Itʼs as translucent as ravenʼs wings
I listen to its sparse humming
It enters my mind crawling like a snail
It enchants
I feel the primal danger of it
My blood starts flowing backwards
And so do my thoughts
I see the house Iʼll die in
I donʼt recognize the door
I walk around it
A red glow is blinking from the windows
I stare at it till I get lightheaded
I spew a black stream of doubts
I let go of as many as I can
Certain nights reveal more than lifetimes
Tonight Iʼm able to look through the walls Iʼve built
I can see how innocent fear looks like
I let it be
I let my body deal with it
May each spasm bring new purposes
I saw both the base and the top of this pyramid
I think to belong somewhere else
But I accept this path Iʼm walking on
Itʼs as silver as a wolfʼs hair
Itʼs as lonely as a wolf can be
But at least itʼs mine
Iʼll honor it with this ode to dark times
May words be dancing with clouds and rain
Till even rats will come out from their nest
Curious about the light spreading up above
Iʼll stand as close as I can to this wrath
Iʼll turn it into a shield
Iʼll learn to breathe around these flames
Iʼll let them take over
Iʼll learn to contain them
Iʼll toss them into the void
To see how deep the fall would be
To count the breaths it will take me
To close this circle with a single brushstroke
And throw the ink in the air
To let chaos draw for me.